meowmaumau

2010-06-07T00:13:00.004+08:00

it's been a super long time since my last post.
shall post something up then! =D

Let's update from March 2010.

March:
- busy with submission dates.
- both sisters' birthday celebration.
- Belly dance competition
- Render @ Raffles hotel ( 2010 grad showcase )
- Dating as usual.

April:
- Soccer watching with SS and Jeff.
- Khin's farewell dinner before she left Singapore.
- ECP outing with Wanrong, Huiting & Jeff.
- Suntec Food & Travel Fair with Sister, booked a holiday tour to Krabi.
- busy with submission dates.
- Resignation.
- Interviews.
- Datelines and more datelines!
- Krabi trip ( 30th April - 3rd May )

May:
- Datelines!
- Jeff flew to China.
- Extended 2 more weeks with the company.
- Datelines and more Datelines + coaching newbie + missing him.
- Talks.
- Jeff's back =)

June:
- Datings
- Arguements.
- Attend Asia-Pasific Advertising & Marketing Congress @ SIM.
- Sent Parents off to Taiwan.
- Jeff's secondary school classmates Chalet.
- Sent sis off to Japan.
- Linghui's 21st Birthday Celebration.
- ( and more to come... )

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Though they might not be reading this blog, I still wanna say Thank You for inviting me to their chalet. =) I'm may not be part of their SCSS group but am really happy when one of them said, Welcome to the Family. =D

Although I did felt a little left out... cause the topics that you guys talk are different from what my group of friends usually talk about. Thanks for the game and the BBQ. I enjoyed myself.. except for some complaints to dear Jeff.

And it seems like every morning in the chalet, we sneaked out. xD no it's not, we went to sent my family member off at the airport. Dont xiang wai wai! yeaps, my family nowadays very happening, fly overseas like taking a taxi. Am actually very happy and surprised that mom and dad want to take picture with me and Jeff... =)

Through this chalet, I get to know my dear even deeper... probably to you, it's no big deal but to me, it's definitely something. that's why I like to travel. you get to see differ sights of people. =) thanks dear... despite me being such irritating KID, you still get me. The Jacket when I'm cold, the head massage when I'm having headache, the toothbrush, the waking up calls.

LingHui's 21st... wasnt much left to say... meeting ZiWei back for chats as she's there as well... and the rest of the people... none I know xD but I enjoyed the cookie decorating part ^^ it was fun.

2010-03-09T11:16:00.002+08:00

things changed after we graduate.
each has their on paths.

where's everyone?

became a workaholic,
who forgets that bf, family and friends takes place first.

Sorry to those whom I missed their birthday parties, for not wishing you guys as well.
especially to someone.

"when are you free?"
"sorry this week I cant"

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first time went clubbing, real clubbing with Jeff. :)
the night before, I only get 2hours of sleep.
rely on alcohol to get high and the energy.
party all night long.
the moment I'm on a seat, I just fall into deep slumber.

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past months, been getting 3-4 hours of sleep... really very tired.
I salute those who work and study part-time..

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I have to get to 3rd party to know what you're thinking, how you're feeling. =((

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got into an argument with a friend.
we might not even be friends as of now.
if it's for the best of both sides, then it's best to let go.

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2010-01-06T12:41:00.003+08:00

[How's Life?]
=)

[Who was the last who sent you an sms?]
Jeff

[Are you good in your studies?]
hell no

[Can you speak English?]
definately

[Who was the last who said "Love You"?]
Jeff

[Who is the most Annoying Person you know?]
S

[FutureSchool/College/University?]
NTU (praying hard)

[What time is it now?]
12.43pm

[What song are you listening to now?]
aircon sound

[Who are you chatting with?]
no one

[Are you in trouble?]
hell no

[Have you been Broken Heart before?]
err. ya

[Missing Someone?]
who else

[What day is today?]
Wednesday

[Any birthday's coming up? Who's ?]
me. today.

[Bored?]
duh

[Last Channel you watched on TV ?]
chn5

[What time did you sleep last night?]
2?3? =x

[Do kids love you?]
err.. no?

[Do you make people Laugh?]
i guess my laughter makes ppl laugh

[Do you give away your secret to anyone?]
strangers i guess

[Ever Smoked?]
not interested

[Ever Drinked?]
yes

[Ever got drunked?]
dont know if consider drunk

[Dumped Someone?]
lol

[Are you Caring, Loving and Tender?]
m i?

[Do you love getting msgs at facebook?]
i'm ok

[Are you bored of doing this?]
---

[What's your fantasy?]
lol

[Are u in anger right now?]
no

[Are u angry at someone?]
no

[What do u really want to do now?]
go have fun

[What brand of clothes do u like?]
comfort no.1

[What brand of shoes do you like?]
comfort no.1

[who's the prettiest?]
no one

[Do you believe in soulmates]
en

[Who is the stupid-est?]
no one

[Cried]
be strong!

[laughed]
laughter is my bff!

[Felt sad]
be strong!

[wanted to kill someone]
S

2010-01-06T11:05:00.009+08:00

30.12.2010 - Dinner w Jeff @ Popeye, Singapore Flyer
31.12.2010 - Countdown w Jeff @ Clarke Quay
01.01.2010 - Preparation for Party
02.01.2010 - Karen's 21st Birthday Party
03.01.2010 - Birthday Dinner with Family
04.01.2010 - Dinner w Jeff, Jeff+SS+JH+MJ=Avatar 3D
05.01.2010 - Dinner w Jack @ Chijmes, Bobby's Taproom Grill & Ribs
06.01.2010 - Today. =D

THANKS

Myself ... Casio Exilim H10 (spent a bomb here)
Parents ... Prepare house + decor + angpow!
Sister ... Prepare House + Decor
Jeff ... (coming) wallet shopping + flower + balloon + Bday cake! ( I also got pay ok! =x )
David ... agree to come to my party for the first meeting + DURIAN ROLLS

Ahger + Lucas ... BodyShop Jasmine Bathset + keychains + Glass Decor
HweeSuan ... Chocolates!
LingHui + BF ... Esprit Bath(Perfume) Set
Tommy + Simon ... Generous angpow
Yude ... angpow ( actually, dont need to give me de.. u didnt even eat! but honored to have u there)

SiShuo ... Generous 313@Sommerset voucher
WanRong + Huiting + Janet + Shirin + HongDa ... 313@Sommerset voucher + Bday Card + TOY CAMERA! (I was craving for this! thanks so much!! =D )
Randy + Zoe ... Wood(some brand call wood? woody? cant rmb) Photo Album ( this is really sweet and thoughtful.. thanks! ^^ )

SS + JH + MJ + CheeEn + CY + BeeHar + Charlene ... Generous Jurong Point Voucher ( shopping spree!! =P )

Neighbour ... Angpow

Jack ... PorkRib @ Bobby's @ CHIJMES.

On-Coming...
Ahma ...
Patrick ...

Sorry for not inviting some of the rest of you.. budgets and my house couldnt take in so many guest.. it's sauna HOT with 30plus people already.. imagine it's 50 ppl.. I cater for 30pax, with 36pax coming, and famish ones, the food eaten was barely half! So little room to mingle around, I've been a bad host. Caterer service was bad, food is just average.

CheeEn's Curry Chicken is the Best! wonder when can we have it? =P

My parents meet Jeff for the first time.. there's alot expectations going around.. even some of my frens commenting abt him.. =\ well, cant and dont wanna change a man.. so just live with it! dont wanna let him feeling vex all the time either.. haha of course, there are some who compliments.. =)

certainly meeting babydavs is exciting and nervous. haha I mean, I'm afraid of the classic case where when 2person meet, expectation falls.. no communications from then on.. but when he appear RIGHT ON THE DOT 4.30PM, my worries are gone. haha! I stutter for a moment.. dont know what to say! seriously HE's a really cool dude.. whoever is his gf/wife.. like I always said, will be a xingfu one.. =D and no worries abt the brkup jokes..

Tommy and Simon is always the ones that make me smile and laugh at their jokes after a hard day.. and Patrick.. guess it's really been a long time...

and for the record, I dont have ALOT guy friends okay!

- if this is not impt to u, it is to me. guess I'm the one who's living the past memories.. whereas you, moved forward. so, I'm gonna move forward too.. why bother right? -

2010-01-04T02:37:00.004+08:00

disappointed. disappointed. disappointed.
I know where I stand in your heart.
balloon burst. balloon burst. bulb exploded.

surprises! surprises!
awesome cake. nice flower.

surprises!
babydavs.
durian roll!

thanks.
everyone.
family.

I need a shoulder.

2009-12-10T12:01:00.000+08:00

21st Birthday Wishlist

What I really want, is a Casio EX-H10 or a Fujifilm EXR-F70. =D

so dont bother thinking abt it, and just buy anything that YOU think I will like. =)
(- be reasonable with the price tag alright? -)

eg: Cosmetics, Waterproof stuff, Food? Anything PRACTICAL okay?

PS: Keep it below R21 ya?

2009-12-10T09:20:00.007+08:00

Date:	Saturday, January 2, 2010
Time:	4:30pm - 10:00pm
Location:	Jurong West Central 1

I will be celebrating my 21st on 2nd Jan.. hopefully everyone can come and share the joy together.. =)

everyone has a Birthday Custom that they go by with, nonetheless, I had mine too. Every guest have to bring a present or angpao. Afterall, what's birthday without presents right?

Those who asked, what I want for as my present? Anything that you think will suits me. =D Be creative with your gifts!

No Birthday Theme, just wear whatever comfortable to u.

Btw, bring along an ADDITIONAL $2 gift for the gift-exchange game. =D
( full address will be given to those who's attending only )

2009-12-10T07:00:00.002+08:00

though never been updating this blog for a long time, many things have changed.

I always enjoy reading blogs.. ya, I'm a sentimental sort because I tend to forget what had happen the day before. Not that I'm not interested to rmb, I just cant.

these few months, there's alot thinking to be done.
Work. Relationship. Parents. Going back to study? just to name a few. =\

the day before, I'm on the verge of breakdown. Really feel like letting everything go. Luckily for me, davyd is there to.. prevent it.. haha. Thou he didnt know how I was feeling then or whatever had happen, he never fails to cheer me up. =) Thanks Davyd! ( if you're reading this )

2009-10-27T11:26:00.002+08:00

I was paid too, for searching through youtube, looking for perfect teeth perfect smile for S.

the perks of working in an ants company. you work till you die.

2009-09-29T01:22:00.001+08:00

I'm too excited to wait for this to happen!

=D

~~ 6hours of sleep is a luxury ~~

2009-05-26T23:34:00.002+08:00

I graduated today.

I regretted, nvr spent my last 3years wisely.

remind me to make a goal, to make more friends, to work and study hard, and join cca.

thanks family~ for being there on my graduation day.

sad that he cant come, or does he even bother to come? or I didnt invite him so he didnt come?
i dunno.

everyone asking me the same question..
y make me sad all over again?

2009-03-15T23:49:00.004+08:00

pray.temple. pray for dear to get good results for his exam.
ate zai rice for lunch.
walked around with sister. shopping. =)
didnt buy anything cause.. no mood to shop.
went to meet SS and HT at cityhall.
so many ppl!
went to the IT fair first.
went into the laptop level. accompany SS look at laptops.
play Fujitsu's small mini laptop. DAMN CUTE! lol. feel like owning one.
walked ard.
went to 6th lvl.
FINALLY! harddrive~ =D
went from Western Digital. to others.
lol. actually abit tired.. so I just let SS decide for me what to buy lo. trust him wont let my money spent unnecessary bah.
heh. good to have a guy during IT fair. dunno what he talking to the sales person also. what fat32? o0 he settle for me can le =x can use in both mac n pc tt's all I know.
saw dear's friend. forgotten his name. dont think he got see me bah. lol.
after walking and cramping for so long. finally just bought one harddrive. 320gb for 99dollars. add in 10dollars for 2extra year warranty and software backup. not bad ey? so total damage.109 today. lol.
went ard, walked to Audio-Technica. wanted to buy the headphone, the button ones. they dont have. the cheapest ones are the Zoe ones.. but I dont feel like buying those, i cant bend them! omg. look so fragile smmore. I'm not those "wen rou" kinda girl. i definately need things that are durable. the new one.. pottery thats what they call? yah. looks nice. 88dollars. damn fking expensive man! rather buy the button. 65dollars.
headdown to marina sq. glance the dcmd gradshow. nth much. v messy.
ate pizza hut with them. curry chicken baked rice! =D so yummy! 14$. wow.
go toilet before going off.
played the kiapkiap thingi. those machine u got a claw to get the toys. i dunno what's called la.
wanted to play once. all in the name of fun. i got it. lolx. with 2dollars only. exchanged it with a mickeymouse. omg. so cute!
wasted another 3dollars claw-ing ard other machines tot i could get more ==" how stupid.
ht asked me to help her. cant la. her metoyou bear so heavy! the claw so small.. in the end, she spent 16dollars. pity her =x but mine is just beginner's luck. lol.
realise it's damn late.
rush off for belly dance. SORRY SS N HT! for making u two rush with me..
latelate. rush. abit pekchek with sister. she late for a few minutes! =x so sorry for being irritated with u.
nothing much learnt. heng. but damn damn tiring.
home. ate dinner. =) nice n yummy. long time nvr eat mama cook der dinner le.
heh. showed papa my new bought harddrive. =D

2009-03-14T12:28:00.002+08:00

went for eunos interview. reached there had a feeling that i dont like it. dont want to go. the person keep pestering me. ==" sales n marketing. nasa technology. PI! i already went for interview for this lo. i dont want to do sales.
called Jeffrey to talk. ended up we arguing on the phone. wtf.
called ht to complaint. lolx. she pei wo chat till so home lo..
walked around jp. refuse to go home.
meet dajie at fairprice. walked to buy cake. in the end. also walked home.
slept on the sofa for 15min. so tired.
went to Pioneer Wharf restaurent.
v nice service. nice ambience. so-so food.
just dont like everything also dont have the sharring der kan jue. =\
bday celebrations for erjie and meimei.
2cakes. one is chocolate. another one is yoghuit mousse. not bad. =)

2009-03-13T12:56:00.000+08:00

weird day.
funny day.
sad day.
sad day.
sad day.
angry day.
fk!

2009-02-25T02:10:00.002+08:00

I just mastered the art of sitting while sleeping..
and I didnt even realise it until my dad wakes me up..
and found myself "waking up"..

I'm just too tired.

behind this plastered smile, lies tears.

some ppl just dont know what is JOB scope.
can dont keep passing me your shits?

some of you may know..
I'm still wanted! lolx.. wanted as in, being chased..
by not 1 but THREE!!
I wont reveal the name..
within just 1week and suddenly spring these 3 guys.. lol
my tao hua just so good..
but of course, the thing I keep telling them is..
I got bf, and I love him very very much.
so, 2 settled. 1 nvr contacted me anymore. (hurray!) another one, became just friends. ( yes! i dont lose a friendship over it! )
left 1 which is still so stubborn..
dont dare to hurt a guy anymore.. understood the feeling of "hurt" v deeply..
so, just keep hinting him tt we cant be tgt..
cause I had Jeffrey.

my ex told me again those words..
in which I longed not to hear it..
I didnt felt happy,
just sorry for him..
he's bz with work, so gf is not a priority.
I cant settle with his decision.
though I dont know I'm rank what in Jeff's life..
it just made me wonder..
if he's working like my ex..
will he, too, placed me as un- impt?
to a man, career is impt.

what shld i do then?
how can I still maintain our own priority?
i dunno.

adulthood.
m I ready for it?

2009-02-19T00:06:00.002+08:00

just checked out my friend's picture of valentine's day..
we went exactly the same location..
saw the same, glow-in-the-dark stick man, who proposed to his gf during valantine's day using glow-in-the-dark sticks and arrange them into letters, placed them at a location near the sea and there's alot of people there watching.
lol.

my friend's valentine's day.
felt very xingfu from their photos.

what's the future lies ahead?
i cant foresee it.
everyone else seems to have plans for the future.. what abt me?

2009-02-13T00:23:00.002+08:00

the day before ytd. we all chionging. thought everyone will be shag so bought mochii to cheer everyone.. turns out, all mochi melted. =\ wasted.

ytd fyp end le. everyone seems gloomy. went for the stupid talk. went clubhouse to slack.and so call sleep. really shebuder to leave this school.. more like, regret never really make "stable" friends when I'm in poly.. only during this fyp, this "family" that I know really make me feel very very regret. haix.

wanted to meet dear for a hug. that's all I need to make me feel better. but cant pangseh my friends.. so in the end, nvr go meet him..

went on to wait for ferguson to come and drive us to eat zhuchao. this time, went yishun. not bad. though dunno the place, but the food was nice. for 16plus per person, we ate crab, prawn, tofu and veggie. lol. pity ferguson for having to eat the whole noodle by himself =x

nicenice crabby. long time nvr eat crab. congrats to wanrong for learning how to shell crabs and prawns! =D very very full.. took grp photo again. lol.

ferg say y never ask my bf to fetch go home, I said cause gt reason.. then I remind him of the reason.. ht asked how come i n him so close. lol. then wr told ferg abt that guy who wants to jio me. haix.

( did I hear.. what?? got guy jio you?! you gt bf le leh! )
ya. i told him. it's been the 9th time I told him and he still kept coming strong. in another aspect, I was thinking, hmmm... not bad, I'm still sought after.. =x HAHA! what an evil thought.

honestly. I really want to be friends with him.. but seems like, it's getting harder and harder when ppl around me dont support of him.. not that I keep want him to want me.. is just tt.. y cant I save this friendship instead? y must I submit to ditching this friend cause he likes me? ftw. that night really show the true colours of the people I know.. perhaps my thinking was differ from them..

ya, my bf knows. he didnt do anything abt it. he doesnt even budge, why should the rest of you? or perhaps, it's something else that's warning me to be ready.. i dont know.

meet bf today. in his car. he kept calling. at home, he kept calling. 21miss calls. and 8messages. perhaps, I should just lose this friendship..

tml is wsd test date. another wtf matter. i know nuts about programming cause I need to be revised twice before understanding. aint I dumb? just hope I could get it over and DONE with.

just felt like crying.
turnning into vegetarian.. cause I have alot of inherited health problems.. dont die too soon plz. though my life line seems short.

2009-01-30T00:09:00.002+08:00

received msg from ahma.. saying not going for cny bainian le.. =\ saded..

imprompt-to went (zhu chao) with WanRong, Huiting, Shirin and Ferguson.. thanks dude for driving us there! ( and mrt as well )

had a great night with you guys.. =D

will upload pictures for memories.. maybe in facebook.. lol. see which one faster.

2009-01-16T14:38:00.002+08:00

fyp. eci. wsd.
Jeffrey. Family. Friends.

with just 160$ per month.. I bought so much stuff on my own.. so rare that I ever ask mummy for refund or money unless I only have $1 in my pocket.. that's y I dont have enough money what..
makeup who buy?
shampoo who buy?
bodyshower who buy?
snacks, bread, supper who buy?
beauty accesories who buy?

all also me.

I wanna go work after graduation. please let my dreams of doing it come true.. =)

2009-01-12T11:20:00.002+08:00

heyyo!
my blog is not dead yet =D

5th Jan : my bday celebration with secondary school friends

6th Jan : my bday celebration with classmates && fyp groupy~

first of all...

thanks :
Jeffrey - choco + balloon + flower + rabbit
LeeWah & Nabin - miniature dressing table + key earring
LeeWah & HweeHwee & Lucas & Yanwen & CheeMing - Dirty Minds Board Game -.-"
Ming (leewah's fren) - musical box
Leewah & dunno who or alone - choco cake
LengHui - hazelnut cake
Amanda - coming from malaysia
WanRong & Huiting & Shirin - birthday buffet treat
Sisters - Belly Dance Advance Class
Parents - Gold key necklace

2009-01-01T14:13:00.002+08:00

much requested wishlist is here.. read this instead! cause I've gotten some of it already =D

something fresh.. a list of something I DONT WANT for my bday.. hehe~

1. Display figurine!
2. Food!
3. Jewellery!

what I want?

1. something that I will use. =D

2008-12-19T23:12:00.003+08:00

back after mia for so long. lol.

celebrated my chinese bday with my family. few weeks ago. received nice pressies. =) and my most loved gold necklace. too precious to even wear it out. lol.

belly dancing is eating out my money. 90 + 110 + 20 + 12 = $232.. this is just so far. still have another 110 + 130 and some surplus to pay.. not to mention one cheap costume itself already cost 100bucks.. lol ==" I could use this money to buy so much more stuff.

there's so many things to buy. when I need money tt time, every thing seems to be, going to R.I.P so soon. wallet. watch. handphone. argh. all impt stuff. save save save!

holiday = no holiday. workworkwork for my fyp. not like gt extra cash income. fk.

going to msia on 24th till 28th. gonna have some family fun.

I love my Jeffrey. Dont take him away from me.

Monopoly!!

Sakura on the 22nd dec with grppies n 4other guys and 1 supervisor.. xDDD gorge urself!

rabbit-dango = 11dollars. ^^ cuties

Jp extend. ppl shld go n check it out. SHOE MANIC!! =)

having sushi with my family on sunday! ^^ today after 2months.. I finally able to wake up at 12pm. eat brunch. bath before 7pm. eat dinner at 7pm at the dinning table with my parents and watch tv after tt. =) something I haven done for a long time.

I dont want ur presents, I dont want ur cash. I just want ur accompany.
it's something people keep forgetting to do, be there.. can you do it?

2008-11-24T02:42:00.002+08:00

1.
how are you?
-frustrated! tired! fucked up!

2.
who was the last person you hugged?
-who else but jeffrey?

3.
look to your left, what do you see?
-wall

4.
where do you like to be the most?
- on bed

5.
whats your fave film?
- xmen

6.
what does the last person you commented on friendster mean to you?
- cant rmb who.

7.
what did you last laugh about?
- my sisters' cute joke that is only understood within the family

8.
where was your default took?
- msn? from web. the camera tt i wanted to buy yet find tt it's so useless. =\

9.
whats the first thing you look for in a girl/guy?
- ability to stand me. I'm quiet an idiotic person to be with.

10.
if your still in school, whats your fave lesson?
- arts, english, malay

11.
what do you work as / want to work as?
- want to work in the fashion industry.

12.
do you play video games? if so, which is your fave game?
- no

13.
who never fails to make you laugh?
- other than my dear, my sisters

14.
what are you listening to right now?
- nothing

15.
who did you last have a sleepover with?
- Shirin's house at Kovan.

16.
i bet you miss someone, who?!
- someone who deserves my miss

17.
are you happy with your life right now?
- depite the hardcore fucking stress.. i still happy. at least I dont have to starve to death.

18.
why did you last get upset?
- for so many fucking reason I rather not tell

19.
who was the last person you texted?
- wanrong

20.
who do you live with?
- family

21.
do you like living with them?
- yeap. free shelther, free eat, free bed. what's not to love?

22.
whats your mood right now on myspace?
- if I had, it would be stressed out!

24.
did you realise that there was no 23?
- i dont. too tired to even see.

25.
what does your profile song mean to you?
- what song?

26.
who did you last shout at and why?
- jeffrey. I'm moodswining-ing

27.
are you normally a happy person?
- used to be.

28.
what was the last thing you went to see in the movies and with who?
- body of lies, jeffrey

29.
whats your fave food?
- anything with spice

30.
are you in love?
- i'm in love with fat god

31.
do you remember how you was 3 years ago?
- ugly bitch

32.
if so, does it make you cringe?
- for what?

33.
if you could be with someone right now, who would it be?
- my bed

34.
do you have any blogs on your myspace?
-what for?

35.
whats your fave thing in your room?
- I have a room? wow! how come I didnt know tt?

36.
is this quiz boring you?
- yes. n I'm sleepy. yet I wan to do this fucking quiz.

37.
if you had one wish, what would you wish for?
- for my relationship to be smooth sailling

38.
when was the last time you lied?
- today

39.
are your lips chapped?
- if yes so?

40.
any last words?
motherfucker get the hell out of my face!

5th QUIZZ!!

Why are you not going out with the person you like?
- like i gt time?

Wheres the last place (not anywhere in your hse) you went?
- imm

At the moment, are you more warm or cold?
- cold

Do you find guys/girls with facial piercings attractive?
- i love them only on guys

What did you do yesterday?
- apart from doing my fyp, monopoly with sis and tt's it. my day ended.

Who can you tell anything to?
- god

What are you thinking about right now?
- i have no one to depend on.

Do you smile often?
- i think so?

Why is your relationship status the way it is?
- cause we cant move on?

Are you a bad influence?
- definately.

How was your Saturday?
- great. rested enough. played enough.

Night out or night in?
- night OUT! i need to hit the club or the booze.

Favorite feeling?
- i'm currently numb to all feeling.

Would you share a drink with a stranger?
- can i dont?

Do you ever think about any of your exs?
- tink of them for what?

Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do?
- not any moment now

Are you serious?
-duh

Anyone upset you lately?
- yah! whole bunch of motherfucker. starts with L,H,S,W,H,K,L,D.

Last person you talked to on the phone?
- my bf.

What could be done to make things better for you?
- money. bf's that's only MINE ONE AND ONLY. and time.

Do someone love you?
- i hope so

Looking back did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
- yeah.

Are you open about your feelings or closed off?
- feelings? open.

Think of the person you told "I love you" last, did you mean it?
- duh. for tt person I could even do silly things. dont try me. those who knows what happen shld know.

Do you hate any of your exs?
- no feeling.

Thought about anyone today?
- no. no one.

Last game you played and with who?
- monopoly. sisters

Know anyone who's been drunk recently?
- me

Do you enjoy drama?
- ya

Would it hurt seeing someone kiss with the last girl/guy you kissed?
- hurt then? bleed lo what else can u do?

Who's bothering you right now?
- fucking ppl tt i mention earlier

Do you miss someone?
- jeffrey.

How good is coca-cola?
- fucking bad

How was your day, what'd you do ?
- tired. no time. not fair.

When's the last time you cleaned your room?
- gt room a?

Are you taking anyone for granted?
- my parents and my invisible friends

Where do you hide your money?
- no more money to hide

What's the last thing that made you smile?
- bears

What are you doing tonight?
- sleeping aft this quiz.

2008-11-24T02:04:00.002+08:00

I spread myself too thin.

motherfuckers, get the hell out of my way.

so many things to do. so little time. ppl say mother count their time by seconds.. I'm not yet a mother I'm already counting time by MINUTES! I finding myself saying this in my head so many times..

" 5 more minutes and I can reach CC! "
" 5 more minutes to start class.. can chiong wan! (running up the hill from dover mrt) "
" 3 minutes to ComTech closing.. WALK FASTER! "
" eh! late liao la.. 9minutes pass already.. dont want go for meeting? "
" aiyah! suay la.. miss train by 1 minute.. "

and many many more... !!! zzz one day I could achieve alotalot things... and one 24hour can make me feel as if it's been 3days ago.. lol ppl tot I crazy.. but seriously.. I couldnt take another day like this anymore.. If my body were to allow, I would have fainted long time ago.. for the past 6 weeks of constant laosai-ing, stomache, headache, head spinny, chest pain, losing hair, dandruff, flu, cough, sorethroat, mood swings... and not to mention vomitting.. maybe if I could survive this, I could work for a magazine.. =)

I dont want to be SKINNY! I just want to have tonned body. skinny bellydance doesnt look as nice and as seductive as fleshy ones.. so I'm keeping my fats! just be more tonned.. =)

BELLY DANCE = DESTRESS.
YOGA = ADD STRESS.
JEFF = DESTRESS.
FRIENDS = MOMENTARILY. WHERE?
FAMILY = STRESS. PARENTS = STRESS. SISTERS = DESTRESS.

just had a game of my FAVOURITE MONOPOLY in malay edition.. =D long time no read malay.. abit weird.. anyway, I made profit and win the game. from 10k to 33k and it's just been less than 3hours? I simply love this game to the core!

today went to buy a gold necklace.. =D
916gold man. suay buy it now.. cause gold price very very DAMN FUCKING HIGH!
choose a simple modern key type.. and a super blingbling goldchain that eats 300++ figure. u can guess how heavy is the gold. I prefer the other pendant, which eats 100++ so I didnt buy tt.. nicer but faster dirty.. =\ total present for my 21st = 408$ =D

initially was asking parents to sponsor me bellydance advance as my bday gift.. but since the gold is so FUCKING expensive.. cant liao lo.. still have party le? so since ALL OF MY VIP BUDDIES CANT MAKE IT AND I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIME TO EVEN SHYT IN THE TOILET AND HAVING TO LOSE 300PLUSPLUS AGAIN ON A PARTY WHICH I WOULD NEVER GAIN BACK.. i dont see a point in making this party work. so yah. just eating out with my family will do.

I'm blogging cause I'm still doing my work ( not fun work ) till NOW.. and I'm having lesson with the DIRECTOR FOR DSMIT sitting in for lesson. ftw man! zzz. the lesson is 8am! gosh. I have to wake up at what? 5am?! siao

wanna know what's my wishlist?

Wii
MONOPOLY
Bellydance Advance course! ( better if can sponsor me to study it in a proper school =x )
JohnLittle voucher
BB cream!

actually.. I have everything I need.. just cant stop myself from shopping so much.. damaging my wallet.. haix

2008-11-13T00:15:00.002+08:00

stressed out.
out of job. means good. gt more time.
no money!
dad just flew back from taiwan on monday.
mom flew to see my uncle on tuesday.
black black black ceremony.
I need money. I need job.
Jeffery having exams.
THROW SO MANY THINGS TO ME TO DO!!
good also. dunnid to help u draw.
just because I do finished my stuff in 3days time doesnt mean I HAVE THE TIME IN THE WORLD HELP U DO YOUR JOB!!
I'm drinking coffee back. bad for my teeth.
I shld get real comfortable with fake eyelashes. my eyes cant seem to open.

I squeeze myself so hard. I spread myself so thin. I'm really very tired.
super mom... HERE I COME!! *gosh! think I'm gonna be very old soon*

make up please!!=)

just because I completed my stuff doesnt mean I have time to waste on helping u.. I finished it asap because I HAVE OTHER STUFF to complete! so reluctant to see u.

2008-10-06T13:05:00.002+08:00

5th? or 6th QUIZZ?? lol. sian liao.

1.
how are you?
~sad.~

2.
who was the last person you hugged?
~ jeffrey ~

3.
look to your left, what do you see?
~ male. LOL! ~

4.
where do you like to be the most?
~ anywhere with jeffrey ~

5.
whats your fave film?
~ action packed blockbuster movie.. ~

6.
what does the last person you commented on friendster mean to you?
~ mean... SHE STILL OWE ME PENANG LAKSA! ~

7.
what did you last laugh about?
~ i forgotten. ~

8.
where was your default took?
~ default? pic? msn? Chinese Garden. friendster? maple. ~

9.
whats the first thing you look for in a girl/guy?
~ patience. I'm a very tempremental person and my moodswing can happen anytime anywhere ~

10.
if your still in school, whats your fave lesson?
~ sec sch u mean? English and mother toungue! ~

11.
what do you work as / want to work as?
~ anywhere in the fashion industry. =) currently working at hotel ~

12.
do you play video games? if so, which is your fave game?
~ video games? no. ~

13.
who never fails to make you laugh?
~ jeffrey? he's a joker and a Lamer. lol. always brighten my day. ~

14.
what are you listening to right now?
~ ppl chatting again. noisy. ~

15.
who did you last have a sleepover with?
~ din sleepover. chalet is the closest I can go. Class Chalet ~

16.
i bet you miss someone, who?!
~ who else? ~

17.
are you happy with your life right now?
~ at times, yes. at times, no. human are always hard to satisfy. ~

18.
why did you last get upset?
~ like two days ago? ~

19.
who was the last person you texted?
~ jeffrey. ^^ before tt was Jayden. ~

20.
who do you live with?
~ my parents ~

21.
do you like living with them?
~ yeap. but my mom wans us to move out. ~

22.
whats your mood right now on myspace?
~ i said, I quitted the acc there ~

24.
did you realise that there was no 23?
~ so? ~

25.
what does your profile song mean to you?
~ no song. hate loading time slow. ~

26.
who did you last shout at and why?
~ i cant rmb. ~

27.
are you normally a happy person?
~ generally, no. ~

28.
what was the last thing you went to see in the movies and with who?
~ Eagle eye with jeffrey ~

29.
whats your fave food?
~ western cuisine, sushi! ~

30.
are you in love?
~ I'm always in love with jeffrey. =X ~

31.
do you remember how you was 3 years ago?
~ lol. definately. how could I forget? ~

32.
if so, does it make you cringe?
~ nope. but it just made me regret the decision I made back then ~

33.
if you could be with someone right now, who would it be?
~ Jeffrey ~

34.
do you have any blogs on your myspace?
~ i have blog here I dont need myspace. ~

35.
whats your fave thing in your room?
~ my bolster. the smelly stinko bolster ~

36.
is this quiz boring you?
~ I'm bored tt's y i'm doing this quiz. == ~

37.
if you had one wish, what would you wish for?
~ EVERYONE TO APPROVE ME N JEFFREY TO BE TOGETHER ~

38.
when was the last time you lied?
~ last saturday for a short date out with Jeffrey ~

39.
are your lips chapped?
~ yeah. cant help but keep peeling it ~

40.
any last words?
~ everytime seems to revolve around Jeffrey right? maybe I should hang out more with my other friends.. =D ~

2008-10-06T12:39:00.002+08:00

5th QUIZZ!!

Why are you not going out with the person you like?
\ he's got sch. bz. /

Wheres the last place (not anywhere in your hse) you went?
\ Jp? school? /

At the moment, are you more warm or cold?
\ cold /

Do you find guys/girls with facial piercings attractive?
\ yes! damn cool! /

What did you do yesterday?
\ audi whole day. slacking. /

Who can you tell anything to?
\ depending on the situation falls on which side /

What are you thinking about right now?
\ I miss him~ /

Do you smile often?
\ ya /

Why is your relationship status the way it is?
\ I love him n he loves me. simple enough? /

Are you a bad influence?
\ I used to being labeled as that /

How was your Saturday?
\ sad. I wish saturday never ends. wanted to have a date with him so badly /

Night out or night in?
\ night out with friends. night in with Jeff /

Favorite feeling?
\ fav? lol. weird qn /

Would you share a drink with a stranger?
\ no. unless is bopian. I dont wanna get HepB /

Do you ever think about any of your exs?
\ no. I have Jeffrey to tink abt /

Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do?
\ duh~ who doesnt? /

Are you serious?
\ about what? /

Anyone upset you lately?
\ qiqi n reeve /

Last person you talked to on the phone?
\ Jefffrey /

What could be done to make things better for you?
\ having more friends, high paying jobs /

Do someone love you?
\ yes. /

Looking back did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
\ nah. the time wasted was worth while. =) /

Are you open about your feelings or closed off?
\ hmm.. I'm an very open person.. some ppl might put off by me /

Think of the person you told "I love you" last, did you mean it?
\ definately. /

Do you hate any of your exs?
\ no longer hate. just no feeling /

Thought about anyone today?
\ Jeffrey./

Last game you played and with who?
\ Audition. with Jayden, mao didi and xiaozhuzhu (btw nt their real audi nick)/

Know anyone who's been drunk recently?
\ nope. hate it when ppl get drunk. KNOW YOUR LIMIT AND SIT IN THE TOILET! man~! /

Do you enjoy drama?
\ kinda. it just makes me fat. /

Would it hurt seeing someone kiss with the last girl/guy you kissed?
\ the last guy I kissed is Jeffrey. OF COURSE IT HURTS! revenge is sweet. =) he kiss one. I kiss 3. how about that? /

Who's bothering you right now?
\ parents. /

Do you miss someone?
\ duh~ ans so many quiz liao. keep miss der person is who else??!!! T_T /

How good is coca-cola?
\ dont like gassydrinks /

How was your day, what'd you do ?
\ my day is TIRING! i did nothing! zzz /

When's the last time you cleaned your room?
\ ages ago? /

Are you taking anyone for granted?
\ my parents /

Where do you hide your money?
\ y shld I tell u? /

What's the last thing that made you smile?
\ maumau bearbear. she/he/IT just made your day /

What are you doing tonight?
\ audi I guess. I wanna go out~ /

2008-10-06T12:20:00.002+08:00

4th QUIZZ!
this is cute.. try doing it~

Fill the people in below!
Answer the questions truthfully
[1] Sisters!
[2] jeffrey
[3] Leewah
[4] HweeHwee
[5] ZhengYeh
[6] Davyd

Have you ever danced with number 2?
- yeap =)

Where did you meet number 5?
- audi. haven meet him in rl though

Have you ever gotten drunk with number 4?
- nope. we've yet to hit the pub / club. lol!

Have you seen number 2 naked?
- skipping this

Have you ever seen 5 in a swimsuit?
- lol. no.

Do you like number 1?
- yes! they are my sisters! ^^

Have you ever met 4s Family?
- yeaps. she have an older brother and a younger brother which both bully her. ==

Do you know 6s middle name?
- wan full name? DAVID WONG JUN WEI!

Have you ever eaten anything in front of 3?
- duh~ countless time!

Do you trust number 5?
- lol abt trust. yes! I trust him y?

Have you ever fought with number 1?
- countless times ==

When’s the last time you talked to 3 in person?
- err.. like.. few days ago?

Are any of your top 6 family?
- [1]!!!!

Have you ever done something dangerous with number 1?
- lol. ask my younger sis. we're the naughty ones =D

Have you ever slept in the same bed with number 5 ?
- nooo~ haven even meet. even meet also wont sleep same bed as him!

Do you think 1 and 5 would make a good couple?
- LOL! NO! xD 3girls and 1guy? i see some warning signs xD

Would 3 do anything for you?
- lol weird qn to ask.. how would I know?

Has 2 ever helped you out?
- many times. smtimes he wont. =X

Have you ever slept in the same bed as number 4?
- hmm.. i cant rmb. did we?

Which have you known the longest time?
- [1]sisters! definately I known them for my whole 19years!

Who have you known the shortest time?
- [5] ZhengYeh... just barely 1year.

Have you ever done anything illegal with number 4?
- lol! what can we do? we are guaikia =)

Will 1 - 6 repost this?
- dont tink so.

2008-10-06T12:11:00.002+08:00

3rd QuiZZ!

by sasa~

1. baby?
~ cutely annoying ~
.
2. dear?
~ Jeffrey ~
.
3. buddy?
~ Leewah, HweeHwee ~
.
4. boy?
~ Jeffrey ~
.
5. pink?
~ no objections. but I prefer not pink. ~
.
6. music?
~ hiphop. rnb. ~
.
7 food?
~ western cuisine , Japanese sushi! FISHFISHFISH! ~
.
8 drink?
~ as long not soft drink can liao. hate burping ~
.
9. car?
~ not owning. not planning to own one. ~
.
10. study?
~ yeap. still student ~
.
11. school?
~ SP ~
.
12. myspace?
~ too much angmoh randomly add. quitted the acc. ~
.
13. friendster?
~ have ~
.
14. subjects?
~ what? ~
.
15. peace?
~ "peace" mission = death mission
.
16. love?
~ is beautiful. just like roses. smell nice. but it pricks you. just incase for knowledge. rose USED to have torns. hybrid ones are the one without torns. =) +
.
17. graduate?
~ hope can graduate by end of this sem ~
.
18. married?
~ I'm planning to settle down.. but what's ahead me is so blurry. ~
.
19. book?
~ the only book I read over and over again is.. Adeline Yen Mah - Chinese Cinderella and Mark Twain - Oliver Twist. ~
.
20. handphone?
~ sony ericson

2008-10-06T11:59:00.003+08:00

2nd Quizz!
nice one. my fren posted this.

What if ur Ex says....

1)Why did you let me go?
+ cause you're pervertic +

2)Can I win you back?
+ dont even try +

3)But I am very much happy with you back then.
+ we're better as friends +

4)I still love you.
+ dont sweet talk with me you ass hole! +

5)When did we last talk?
+ i got a call.. gtg BYE! +

6)Can you go with me?
+ unless you're sponsoring ALL MY SHOPPING EXPENSES, GIFTS, TRAVEL EXPENSES PLUS ADDITIONAL PERSON'S EXPANSES.. and it HAS to be overseas and you're out of my sight. I will go "with" you +

7)Hey,can i give you/ask for a ride?
+ so what if you got car? +

8)Were you able to move on?
+ moved on already. +

9)I regret losing you.
+ aww~ too bad. you just gotta find another girl then. I'm not yours! +

10)I cannot keep my promise to you.
+ well said *slap* +

11)My parents do not like you.
+ so? like I care? +

12)You have changed.
+ definately. you've changed too. look much more haggard. take care buddy! dont die too soon! +

2008-10-06T11:35:00.002+08:00

First quizz coming up!

Did you just wake up?
\ no I'm in school already! \\

Who’s car were you in last?
\ Jeffrey's rented car! and of course this morning's uncle's taxi. \\

When is the next time you will kiss someone?
\ uhm. like when I'm meeting my bf? \\

What color shirt are you wearing?
\ his fav black and grey \\

Last movie you watched?
\ EAGLE EYE \\

Last thing you ate?
\ Panadol flu \\

Last thing you drank?
\ water \\

Last person/people you went out with?
\ uhm.. Jeffrey? \\

Last person you shake hands with?
\ I cant remember. \\

Where did you sleep last night?
\ my house? my bed? \\

Are you happy right now?
\ no. frustrated. sad. tired. giddy. ugh! \\

What did you say last?
\ byebye \\

Where is your phone?
\ beside me? \\

What was the last museum you went to?
\ hmm... shld be the Asian Civilisation Museum \\

What color are your eyes?
\ i say black but they said brown. u decide \\

How was your weekend?
\ sad. hate it everytime need to rush when meeting JEFFREY \\

When was the last time you had your heart broken?
\ long time ago \\

Who/what do you hate/dislike currently?
\ who? QIQI! and REEVE! what? GOING BACK HOME! GOING BACK SCHOOL! \\

What are you listening to?
\ ppl chatting and vacuum cleaner sound. == irritating \\

Are you excited?
\ about what? \\

What is your favorite store?
\ DOROTHY PERKINS! WATSONS! GUARDIAN! SASA! \\

What day is it today?
\ uhm.. monday? \\

What were you doing at midnight last night?
\ playing audi? == \\

Are you left-handed?
\ yes \\

What’s for dinner tonight?
\ if I'm cooking? Steamed Salmon with vinegar.. and potato salad.. miss salad =( \\

What is the last alcoholic beverage you had?
\ hmm... shld be Johnny Walker black label \\

When is your birthday?
\ if u know, u gotta buy me present ya? =D \\

How tall are you?
\ I'm 6inches tall. believe me? \\

Who made you laugh today?
\ who? no one. \\

Do you have any expensive jewelry?
\ duh~ \\

AIM or MSN?
\ I only use msn. aim too much angmoh. \\

Where do your cousins live?
\ malaysia, canada, hongkong, china? \\

Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
\ yeah! I'm a spoilt brat! \\

What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
\ YES MOM! I'M GOING TO SCHOOL TODAY! \\

Do you drink beer?
\ yeah. but of any beer, gimme chingdao. =) others I dont like \\

Frienster or Facebook?
\ I rarely login friendster.. only when I'm bored. facebook? I lazy accept friends. \\

What's the name of your hand phone?
\ Sony Ericson? \\

What was your favorite subject in school?
\ my favourite subject? PROJECT MANAGEMENT! COMMUNICATION SKILLS! CULTURAL AND MEDIA! ALL MY GEMS MODULE! \\

Do you smile a lot?
\ you bet. I smile even when ppl is scolding me. what do ya think? \\

Do you have any talents?
\ yes! I have talents! in shopping! =D SHOW ME THE MONEY! \\

Have you ever been to a wedding?
\ wedding dinner? yes. real wedding? I dint fly over to attend. \\

Do you have any children?
\ I want to have children but I'm afriad of taking care them so I rather not? =x \\

Did you take a nap today?
\ no. ==" i barely even close my eyes for 1minute \\

Ever met someone famous?
\ Jesslyn tay? dunno how to spell her name. \\

Do you want to be famous one day?
\ no. fame is not my thingi. \\

Are you multitasking now?
\ no. what's left to do? \\

Whats one of your favorite things to do?
\ SHOPPING! \\

Ever been to Las Vegas?
\ no. dont want to be there too. \\

What are you doing today?
\ either I'll go home and snooze or I'll go get my eyebrows trimmed or I'll go for a haircut. \\

Have you ever been gambling?
\ duh~ \\

When is the last time you updated your blog?
\ er.. check back dude~ \\

Have you been to New York City?
\ no. if I'm working I will be there. \\

Ever been to Disneyland/world?
\ nope. unless I wanna destress.. I'm not going there. \\

Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
\ err.. ya? how about MAU? \\

Last thing you cooked?
\ hmm.. spaggetti xDD \\

Last time you cried?
\ hmm.. skipping this! \\

Last time you were sick?
\ NOW! sorethroat and FLU! \\

Do you think anyone will repost this?
\ hmm.. if you're bored yes. \\

2008-10-06T11:21:00.002+08:00

kinda bored.. ended my 10am FYP briefing session... and it ended at 11am. ==" slack at the library for awhile.. super tired.. din wanna go home also.. i wanna go work! not as in Labour working.. but DESIGN.. I thinking dunno whether wanna go internship after i graduate anot.. cause I really wanna try out the magazine industry! perhaps I shld take up another job offer for a jewellery store.. I could learn AND get paid at the same time.. cool huh? any comments on whether I should apply for that job??

Zoe commented that I look prettier. ==" I thought I look terrible.. messy hair and stuff like that.. mom urges me to cut it out.. I guess I'm gonna visit a hairstylist any moment.. perhaps before thursday? else I have to wait till school starts than can find the time..

talk abt sch... I REPEAT A MODULE.. ==" it's just a sooner or later thingi. =X hehe. mom n dad gonna KILLME! i saw the FYP schedule.. we have to finish the prototype by 8TH WEEK! wtf! we're squeezed by 4weeks already and now.... by 8th week! knn. really start school is chiong liao.. hopefully I'm still able to work.. else I dont know how to fund my INTERMEDIATE belly dance.. $100++. more ex than Salsa Advance =="

yes. I belly dance. and I LOVE it! correction if anyone thinks that I dance is to SEDUCE men or even Jeffrey.. NO! I like belly dance because it's the only dance that u learn how to section your body.. and it DOESNT bloody give u lean thin sexy tummy. YOU WILL HAVE BULGING TUMMY! because of all the muscles.. do a vertical 8 or a omni for me and you'll understand what's belly muscle. so far, everything's for me.. EXCEPT! the CHEST circle. ==" all of us rarely use our chest muscle to move.. cause it's obscene to do so in the public.. but the muscles there... merely 5-6 round leave u gasping for air already.. ahh~ enough of this for the NON-interested ppl..

I'm gonna post few quizzes.. cause I'm freaking tired and bored.

btw, in audi.. QiQi and I are GAME OVER. guess we'll go our seperate ways..

2008-10-03T00:40:00.002+08:00

lately been going out alot.. with ahma mostly.

failed a module. at first still so happy. lol. wonder what's gone into me.

ytd went swimming with erjie. dont really feel tired. tt's great! managed to sustain my diving down skills. lol. really had alot fun.

tired. my leg gt bruised from the swim. not blueblack, is reddish maroon. =="

go school. tot applying for forwarding module. when I filling in the form.. I was like. wtf. this is for real. wtf m I doing man~! ==" very disappointed with myself. I hope next semester.. I can be more matured and keep reminding myself abt my situation now..

ahma n I see our GPA. from the first yr1 sem my gpa is the same as now. ==" ahma laugh so loud nia.. lol

sch. ahger's house. orchard. home. tired.
audi network maintainance. ==" cant play. so sian. smtimes I tink is it God wan me stop playing? mama scold me reg this.. i dint feel unhappy. just tt.. i'm not "awake"

i feel so tired again.. lately.. those feeling that I had when I just came back from ChangChun came back to me.. those days, I dont feel like eating and I gt gastric. after eating, I dont feel ease I need to vomit. ==" I tot it's just because I'm not getting used to Local food but... how about now? hate it everytime I vomit. heng I never eat any spicy. else damn pain.

davyd show me his gf's photo. lol. chio. wish you both happiness. another you yuan wu fen der couple. haix. he still can talk to me about eating sushi. lol.

all my botak friends... she bu der ni men! =( cant imagine next year.. everyone is enrolling in NS. so weird feeling. can I dont graduate? then we all can stay like this. lol =X selfish little person inside me is doing the talkin!

I'm holding my chinese bday party on this year's DEC 20plus.. maybe tgt with Christmas..

2008-09-26T01:25:00.002+08:00

25th September 2008

if were to put in words to say how much I love you.. I wouldnt measure up..

thanks so much dear..

Jeffrey took me for a ride in a car.. with much dizziness confusing.. I'm not unhappy.. I'm just disappointed with myself for having motion-sickness..

scariest part is when the car engine-died.. omg. and when the slope we were on.. was not helping us.. lol.

dear quite surprise for few things that I know abt cars.. I've been on cars for 14 years.. maybe 13years to be exact.. only 5years without car.. so, I guess it come naturally..

thought dear few things to take note.. give feedback.. better to tell him the bad things first than to let him experienced it.. Singapore is practically a very safe country.. nothing much to learn.. if in Malaysia.. there's alot thing to take note..

back when I was young.. we really safe guard our cars.. thanks to mama's over-worrying that our car have not been hijacked before.. so mama's nagging all come to me.. and I'm telling him what to do. what not to do. not to say I'm pro la.. just wanna let him know ma..

went round and round.. heng dear still know the basic where to and not to go.. I was very dizzy.. until came to a point.. my stomach couldnt take it.. i went to poop and vomit.. ==" really hate that feeling.. I'm still feeling the round and round motion in my head.. think I'm gonna hit the snooze button soon to get some rest..

tml will be meeting the girls~ lolx hopefully I wont spend much.. else, I got nothing left to save..

2008-09-26T01:01:00.002+08:00

Pekchek now.. finding any survey to to..grr!

3 names thats in your mind
\ Jeffrey \ Leewah \ HweeHwee \

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now
\ teeshirt \ shorts \
Three things you can't live without?
\ love \ spicy hot stuff \ STUFF ANIMAL! \
What's your fav cake?
\ icecream cakes! \
Are you currently in a relationship?
\ yes \
Have you ever been given a rose?
\ yes \
What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
\ as long as it's with the person I love.. every movie IS a romantic movie \
Have you ever been in love?
\ yeah.. head over heels.. \
Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
\ yes. I believe in Love at First Sight too \
What's/Who is your current problem?
\ what? MONEY is my current problem. who? MYSELF is my current problem \
Have you ever had your heartbroken?
\ definately \
Your thoughts of online or long distance relationship?
\ online? dont take it too seriously.. in this digital world.. everything can be faked. long distance? unless the guy is willing to fly over just to see you, give it up. \
Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?
\ yeaps. but I'm glad tt it dint end badly.. \
Do you believe on the statement "once cheater always a cheater?"
\ yes. unless the person prove him/herself is worth your love again. I reckon you'd becareful. \
How many kids do you want to have?
\ currently none. though my thoughts of having kids start to change ( SCARY! ) I'm afraid of being a bad mother. if I have a supportive family.. I dont see why not have more than 2? \
What is/are your favorite color(s)
\ black \ midnight blue \ red \ gold \
Do you believe you only love once?
\ nope. love can happen anywhere anytime. is the matter of is it in the right place at the right time? \
are you and your ex(s) friends?
\ we're "bro n sis" but I rather not keep in contact with each other. \
things you look in a guy/girl
\ broad ( hopefully muscular ) shoulder \ attentiveness \ cooks! \ musically incline \ ABILITY TO PREDICT MY MOODSWINGS =) \
at what age did you start liking the opposite sex?
\ can I say at 10? \
what song do u want to be played at your wedding?
\ all the wonderful 80's or early 90's love songs.. they just make me feel so touched \

2008-09-08T14:21:00.004+08:00

bored bored.. sitting in SP's main library doing nothing but blogging and starring at this computer screen.. argh!

morning went for the so call interview.. was bit skeptical about the job.. cause mom asked me to take up another tutoring instead.. less xingku.. but oh well.. I have friends working with me.. hopefully I'll b a usefull person again.. and our friendship wouldnt be ruined because of a job.. I'm like placing my friendship in jeoprody as I'm in need.. DESPERATE need for money.. all thanks to that stupid 300 damaged that I did yesterday.. [ will update post when it's done~ u'll b amazed! ]

and of course, constance reminder from my parents to... well, be independent.. mum scolded me for buying mooncake home the other day.. so much for being a filial daughter.. I know my 50$ is not worth a penny to u.. but it's my own effort money.. zzz dunnid to remind me that I need to plan for the future. I already planned it out.. fk it. damn sian.

friends thought I'm stupid to move out.. it's not my choice.. if papa doesnt work anymore.. our family can no longer sustain the house.. YOU THINK I NOT WORRIED?? my situation is different from u all.. so stop telling me I'm stupid u dumb ass! at times I wonder if I ever should tell my friends the truth or not.. of course, I'm not saying my besties.. grrr damn pekchek

Alex told me problems abt his r/s.. which again make me feel guilty for doing the same thing I did to Jeff.. but we're not as extreame as his.. Alex is very easliy jealous.. I guess being his gf kinda harsh too.. no personal life at all..

yesterday, chatted on the phone with my Audi brother,Reeve.. he cooks, he entertaints, he plays guitar and HE PSYCO YOU! zzz nvm.. keep me entertaint jiu hao.. lol chatted until 5am.. crazy.. never call me wake up also.. zzz heng never late to meet ahma.. dear zhuzhu neh.. sleep so much.. today meeting him later in the night.. cant wait to see him.. and wish him HAPPY BIRTHDAY! lol ^^ wonder how dear's friend celebrated for him.. meanwhile.. maumau just have to rot here and there lo.. this time.. I waited for him for 6.5hours! beat tt dear! =X

what's for pressie? since the other day he dint like it.. that 78dollar's mooncake chess set.. guess I'll have to search again bah.. most unlikely will be getting a pressie for him.. he has everything he need.. and I'm broke.. and I cant cook.. =\

haix. is our r/s build to last? how long? I also wan to prepare myself before getting hurt again.. but if I do, I'm not letting myself to fall in love again.. and being that, Jeffrey dear can feel it too.. the number of people supporting our r/s is not much.. rather only a handful.. wishing us to break and giving me rude comments even from my own family.. is being with him so bad that they have to do that? each time they say, what can I do? defend? it will only create more things for them to say about us.. I'm so close to giving up, when I did something utterly wrong, not wrong for my perception, but wrong for others.. people judge me differently.. I did what I did to get something.. and I'm not being stupid because ultimately I already made up my mind.. I'm weaker now.

y cant I think of the good side of r/s? I'm always so negative.. so pessimistic..

few days ago chatted with Reeve reg supernatural stuff.. I'm glad someone finally had more powers than I do.. ok I call them powers, maybe u would call them "stuff".. since small I'm very very afraid of ghost or unnatural being.. tt's y I couldnt stand watching horror or ghost movie.. if u belive me, each time u watches a ghost story, some of it will be attracted to u.. believe me when I say, your deceased relatives is somewhere around you when u talk about them.. we shared much of what we encountered from young.. it's all in the past and I wish to put it behind me.. I'm rather thankfull that I cant see them.. guess if I do, I'll be in the hospital bed.. haha. anyway, telling people who DONT BELIEVE is a waste of time.. dont promt me reg this

2008-09-07T23:47:00.011+08:00

just got back from CozyCot HolyGrail Party 2008! wasted never got to stay for long.. haix..

bought stupid "slimming" tea, which actually is detox tea.. actually I'm against it.. but jie lo.. wan to buy.. zzz.. then that become the CORE of mummy and our arguement.. damn sian.

bought Clinelle travel packet.. Ettusais Acne range.. heard that of it's good review so bought this two to try out.. =) this alone cost me ard $114.. plus the stupid tea.. add up to $203plus! lol ==" dunno y my sis wan buy also.. then I sign up for this self improvement class.. which cost me $88 dollars more.. @.@ dunno y spent so much.. grr! fk it

anyway, Ettusais give me free gifts.. lol so good.. smmore is my favourite.. LIP GLOSS! omg! heng I never buy Stilla's lip gloss.. wanted to get it so much.. but abit too expensive.. $31plus for one tube.. crazy! elf better. hahas..

here's pictures to enjoy..

the freebies I gotten after that 300plus dollars of Damage is done. these samples could actually last me MONTHS!

[ Top, From right: Ginvera New Shower Series, Bio-Essense Total Defence Against Aging, Bio-Essense Face Lifting, La Roche-Posay Targeted Breakout Corrector]

[ Bottom, From right: Ashnic bath scented soap, two small purple paper soap, rather cute I say.. ]

the bio-essense stuff..

the highly raved Foltene Hair Loss..

[ From right: Ginvera cracked heel and elbow cream, highly raved Nu Teen anti-pimple gel ]

[ Top, From right: Laneige Water Bank Essence, Laneige Dull eye cream?, Loreal True Match Foundation, - some massage vouchers-, Phillips Wain one day pass.. Phillips Wain is something like Amore, just to let u all know.. , DRX 40% voucher.. DRX mainly sell skincare , OSIM $100 uSqueeze voucher]

[ Bottom, From right: Vichy spf50 Sunscreen, Ahava voucher... another pampering treat! , Revive voucher.. much posh-er version ]

[ Top, From left: ColorBar Complimentary Creative Highlight voucher ]

[Bottom, From left: Perfect Potion 15% gift voucher, The Face Shop voucher, Kotec purchase voucher ]

[ From right to left : LuxAsia Essensials purchase voucher - in a form of letter.. weird - , Rustic Nirvana voucher - Massage place - ]

[ From top: Avalon voucher.. DaiDoMon voucher.. Dome meal voucher ]

[ Top, from right: Original Source Deep Soak Bath Foam, Skinc $100 dollar voucher - most raved about their serums - , ORA mineral gift certificate ]

[ Most left: Kotex pad samples ]

2008-09-06T01:59:00.002+08:00

ARE YOU:
►Perfect: NOPE
►Tall: NO
►In your pajamas: NO
►Left handed: YES!
=======================================
LAST
►Friend you saw: ERICSON
►Talked to on the phone: JEFFREY
►Person to text you: FRANKY
►Is today better than yesterday: DEFINITELY
=======================================
FAVORITE:
►Number: 3,5,8,9
►Color: BLACK, MIDNIGHT BLUE, RED
►Food: SPICY! KIMCHI! SUSHI! WAFFLE! ZHUZHU!
►Place: JEFFREY'S HEART =x
=======================================
QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:

Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
► SWITCH OFF THAT IRRITATING ALARM OF MINE

Q: Do you have anything bothering you
► ERM, LIKE WHO DOESNT!

Q: What's the last movie you watched in theaters?
► THEATERS? BEEN AWHILE~

Q: Where is the last place you went?
► TUTEE'S HOUSE

Q. Do you smile a lot?
► PEOPLE GAVE ME THAT "WHAT THE HECK IS THIS STUPID GIRL SMILLING FOR? " LOOK FREQUENTLY..

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
► NOT WHEN I WANTED AN ANSWER FROM GOD

Q: Are you a friendly person?
► I USED TO BE, NOT ANYMORE

Q: Where did you sleep last night?
► MY BED

Q: Why did you sleep there?
► CAUSE IT'S THE ONLY PLACE I CAN SLEEP?

Q: When was the last time u cried?
► GOSH! MILLION MINITUES AGO!

Q: What was your last thought before going to bed?
► HOW TO MAKE THE BEST OUT OF MY LIFE NOW!

Q: Rate life as of right now, one being bad, ten being great?
► 7

Q: What do you hear right now?
► SOUNDS OF MY FAN? AND TAP WATER

Q: Does anything hurt you right now?
► YES! MY EYES ARE TIRED!

Q: What's your favorite month?
► NONE! AS LONG AS THE MONTH DONT MOVE! I'M HAPPIER!
=======================================
EMOTIONS:
Are you missing someone right now?
► EVERY PARTNER WILL MISS THE OTHER PARTNER

Are you single?
► NOT SINGLE AND NOT AVAILABLE

Are you tired?
► DEFINATELY!

Are your parents still married?
► FORTUNATELY YES!
=======================================
BASICS:
►Real name? KAREN
►Age? 19
►Eyes? I SAY BLACK OTHERS SAY BROWN
►Male or female? I GOT BOOBS! FEMALE!
►Single? TAKEN!
►Crushing? LOVING!
►Smart? I'M DUMB AS AN ASS!
►Hair color? HALF BLACK HALF BROWN
►Sweats or Jeans? JEANS LOVER!
►Phone or Camera? CAMERA! WORLD WITHOUT WORDS = CANON!
►Health freak? WHEN I'M COOKING YES! WHEN I'M EATING HELL NO!
►Righty or lefty? LEFT LEFT LEFT RIGHT LEFT
►SMOKE or Drink? I DRINK
======================================
FIRSTS:
►First best friend? A FRIEND ACTING AS A TORTISE DURING MY KINTERGARDEN I CANT REMEMBER HIS NAME.
►First award? FIRST IN WHOLE KINDERGARDEN FOR CHINESE
►First enemy? I'M A LOVEABLE PERSON =D
►First pet? FISHY FISHY FISHY!
►First vacation? GOTTA BE SOMEWHERE IN MSIA. KUANTAN?

CURRENTLY:
►Eating? I'M DONE WITH DINNER
►Drinking? SALIVA
►Listening to? FANS' BLOWING SOUND, PLASTIC SHAKING, MOM'S COUGHING, TAP RUNNING WATER.
►Plans for tommorow? BDAY DATE WITH JEFFREY!
►Waiting for? BIGBIG JOB AND PAYCHECK!
=======================================

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE GENDER:
►Shorter or taller? I'M A SUCKER FOR TALLER GUYS!
►Romantic or spontaneous? Y CANT WE HAVE BOTH? =x
►Sensitive or loud? BOTH AGAIN!
►Hook-up or in a relationship? R/S I'M SERIOUS WHEN I STARTED IT!
=======================================

HAVE YOU EVER:
►Drank hard drinks? YEAH! AND I ALMOST KNOCK MYSELF OUT!
►Lost glasses/contacts? NOT WEARING ANY
►Ran away from home? I DREAMT OF IT
►Broken someone's heart? YES.
►Been arrested? I AINT TT NAUGHTY YET
===================================

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
►Do you like someone? I'M IN LOVE DUDE
►Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? I'M NOT HAPPY, BUT I'M THANKFULL

2008-09-06T01:42:00.002+08:00

1. Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours?
~ Jeffrey dear! =X I wanna be as sticky as I could.. HE'S MINE!! muahahah! =X ~

2. Who do you blame for your mood today?
~ myself lo.. ~

3. Have you ever seen a dead body?
~ nope. I would cry and shiver if I ever see one ~

4. What should we do w/ stupid people??
~ BE LIKE THEM! =D ~

5. How long do you think you will live?
~ not long.. my life line is short.. guess I'll have to give birth earlier if I ever want to see my children growing up! =X ~

6. What was the first thing you did this morning?
~ switch off that irritating alarm from my handphone~

7. The color of carpet in your bedroom?
~ no carpet.~

9. Last person you went out to dinner with?
~ Jeffrey I think~

10. Are you spoiled?
~ definately. I'm an irritating person.. that likes to spend and spend and spend! ~

11.Do you drink lots of water?
~ I used to but no longer. learnt it from my bf xD ~

12. What toothpaste do you use?
~ Colgate ~

13. How do you vent your anger?
~ depending who's fault, if his, I'll punch and bite him.. if other people's I'll probably write it down here and draft it.. either that I'm just gonna spend my money on stuff that I probably dont need.. or I'll just find a nice quiet place, sit down and listen to my songs.. =D ~

14. The last compliment you received?
~ I dont remember.. my eyes are pretty? xD said by the IPSA makeup artist.. ~

15. What are you doing this weekend?
~ hehe.. surprise for my dear~

16 When was the last time you threw up?
~ I guess when I came back from ChangChun tt time.. I kept vomitting.. not feeling well.. ~

17. Is your best friend a virgin?
~ can I consider it yes? ~

18. What theme does your room have?
~ fengshui theme~ xD ~

19. When was the last time you were at a party?
~ I dunno.. BUT I'M GOING TO A PARTY ON SUNDAY! WOOHOO~!! =D ~

20. Are you a mama's child or a daddy's child?
~ mummy's daughter ~

21. Would you ever join the military?
~ CHUNKY HUNKY BOTAK BOYS!! as much as I LOVE military~ I dont think I ever want to be in their position.. I got too little brain for that.. ~

22. The last website you visited?
~ www. friendster.com tt's where all these quizzes come from.. ~

23. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
~ let me think.. I nt tt type who will cam whore frequently so.. I cant rmb who. =X ~

25. Last person you went to the movies with?
~ Jeff. just today. movies are nicer to catch when with him.. ~

26. What did you do/will you do for your birthday this year?
~ cant rmb. so long~ Jan man! ~

27. Number of layers on your bed?
~ 3.~

28. Is anything alive in your room?
~ yes. my softtoys! ~

29. Today, would you rather go back a week or go forward a week?
~ back a week.. ~

30. What are you looking forward to right now?
~ SATURDAY BDAY DATE! SUNDAY HOLY GRAIL PARTY! MONDAY NIGHT DATE! ~

2008-09-06T01:21:00.002+08:00

The last time you actually hung out with your friend?
\\ wow I dunno~ but definately gonna have GIRLS NIGHT OUT soon! =D \\

What's bothering you right now?
\\ things that shldnt happen and my state-of-life \\

Do you drink/smoke?
\\ I drink, but rarely nowadays.. no time for it.. \\

What kind of phone do you have?
\\ Sony Erricson, infact it's my first time using it. haha. == \\

Wallpaper on your computers desktop?
\\ white blank \\

Wallpaper on your phone?
\\ receipts that me and my sis's dining in Crystal Jade \\

Next time you will hug someone?
\\ depends on my mood \\

Is there something about you that you don't think you'd ever tell anyone?
\\ I guess everyone has a secret? \\

Are you wearing anything on your feet?
\\ nope \\

What is the last thing you drank today?
\\ chinese tea \\

Closest black object?
\\ my watch? \\

Who the last person to talk to you on the phone?
\\ Jeffrey \\

Who was the last person to send you a text message?
\\ Franky =X \\

If you could have one person with you right now who would it be?
\\ of course, Jeffrey dear.. he's someone special to me~ \\

Anyone you want to kill?
\\ you bet! \\

What are you eating?
\\ nothing. I'm done with dinners.. \\

Do you believe in soul mates?
\\ yeaps. but I dont believe in finding one.. nt so lucky! \\

What do you want to be when you grow up?
\\ I'm already growing old! I wont tell my goals/ dreams now, but when I acheived it, I shall tell u then. =D \\

Where do you live?
\\ Singapore the little red dot! \\

What did you do last night?
\\ play games until late in the wee hours \\

Do you miss someone right now?
\\ like duh~ anyone with partners must be missing their other halfs right now.. \\

Do you think they miss you too?
\\ I hope so, but yeah. lol X= I know I'm thick skinned \\

What are you going to do after this?
\\ plan for tml's day out.. and audi if there's any time left for me to play~ =X \\

Do you prefer day or night?
\\ I'm an night owl.. \\

Have you ever slept over 12 hours?
\\ u can say beyong 12hours.. =D \\

Who honestly knows everything about you?
\\ God \\

Vanilla or Chocolate?
\\ I'm cool with anything \\

What do you wear more: shorts, slacks, jeans, or sweatpants?
\\ I'm a jeans type of girl.. \\

How would your friends describe you?
\\ weird? =X lol! \\

How old would you want to be when you settle down or get married?
\\ when I was young, I planned to get married at the age of 20.. but many people have "scolded" me with my unrealistic dreams.. so I now dont plan to get married! =X maybe have children will do.. =X THE FUTURE IS HARD TO DECIDE! maybe tml I'm getting married! =D \\

Anyone broken your heart?
\\ you bet! \\

Have you ever waved to someone and realized it wasn't the person?
\\ like duh~ \\

Would you choose love over money?
\\ If I'm desperate for money~ it will come first, otherwise, it'll be love~ \\

Are you excited for school?
\\ nope. I hate sch. mind you I'm getting this diploma to please my parents only~ \\

Someone on your mind?
\\ yeap. my partner \\

2008-08-30T03:02:00.003+08:00

ello! =)

watched Wall-E. lol. cute and nice. I would suggest watching it with your lover. has some touching but not VERY touching scenes.

wanted to catch DeathRace, but time uncompatible.

I quit the Part-time job as A Graphic Designer. lol. many reasons. but I dont think all the transportation money is worth my effort for going down to the company. simple too expansive since NOW i'm paying for my own transportation fee.. plus my handphone bills monthly. which all my earnings go to and left me with pathetic 20dollars a month. I'm have other lobangs, just tt I dont like to commit.. I prefer flexibality where I could easily arrange my timings whenever I need to.. still looking. lol. and thanks ahma for giving me the info.. I wanted to jump into this Waitressing Job but when i read that I need to promote WINE~ oh gosh.. lol not only I dint like the taste of Red wine, I dont fancy a tiny lil bit of it.. how about Chivas? Johnny Walker? lols.. my mom said, before I go work, I'll get drunk myself. =="

my dad just flew back from Manila. =) I'm happy, but sad I dint get to eat with him tonight. and I'm so glad to eat mom's cooking, though I'll be missing eating with Jeff. cause tonight, mom cooked my favourite! Salmon fish! and new technique! we watched this cooking show tgt, and mom decided to try to put shreds of lemon and lime skin onto the salmon. and WOW! taste even better! =D gonna tell her tml.. xD I love mom's cooking.. and for that, u could see my size. haha! I wouldnt go hungry at home.. and mom wont allow any of us to go out of the house with an empty stomach.. I love her. =D

ah, so much tt's happening.. I spent 4hours sitting in McDonalds, talking to strangers and starring into blank space... just to think through properly.. lols.. of course I was restlessly bored and got Jeff to entertaint me.. and thanks so much! maybe tt's y I loved him.. haha. finally I ordered a small fries and a hot apple pie with my pathetic 4dollars. tt's all I want to spend on McD tt day. and those waitress in the fastfood restaurent thought I was an invigilator to rate how much stars should I give to them. I would say, service damn good. =) better than any McD outlet. probably I'm in Orchard. lol. how I wish I could really go on a good backpacking trip with Jeff. it's always been my wish to go out of this country and travel around with him. this way, I would know whether can I really live with him in his house or not. but I wouldnt put so much hope.. haha. I'm more afraid of the outcome. and MOM! I will move out! dont throw me out before I'm ready! =X

I been sample and freebies and sale and offer chasing tt when David started calling me "auntie"! omg. I just mortified! I need to save dude. and he's gotten into TP! great! how's the botak calling? I was thinking, suddenly all my male friends are going into NS.. so lonely. esp closer ones, find who to talk? NS sure damn tired.. davs asked me.. how long do we known each other. lolx. nearly 2 years? and we're going to meet! I was happy at first, but paranoid in the end. I dont wish our friendship to be like others.. meet already then never talk. rarely people would talk to u because their expectation has been lowered.. hoping he wont bring up this topic again. hehe =X

BELLY DANCING! sometimes I wish the instructor could coach me alone but she has her eyes on me.. lol hopefully could be among the budding ones.. need more flexibility.. not to say I want to dance this infront of oogling male, unless it's no choice, but cause this dance really celebrates women's curves! and I dare to say, FAT FLESHY women dance belly dance the best! the sticky ones can dance, but it look as if some skeleton are dancing in your closet. =X I'm not joking. when they shake, NOTHING to jiggle! and I like how this auntie dance. she has really wide hips.. jsut like mine. and everytime either I following her or she following me. lol at times we both were wrong! and my instructor would laugh! zzzzzzzz. wanted to join Ballroom dance, but I'm afraid of asking Jeff along.. neither do I want him to see me in the arms of another man.. so I guess I stick to dances which are solos..

I wanted to try hiphop.. not breaking though cause I aint fit, purely hiphop.. my sister said they dance like robots.. lolx! I wanted to try but cant seem to have any classes that are not filled with people..

finally.. IPSA stuff DONT WORK! though they claimed this and that.. I went to their Opening of Autum / Winter Private Party at Tangs Orchard yesterday.. gotten free makeup consultation.. my eyeshadow still crease! aiyoh! but I learnt much reg putting on eye makeup.. maybe gonna try at home.. and see how.. and I bought the liquid liner for NOTHING! mom dont like see me put liquid eyeliner, cause she says made my eye look much smaller, I disagree. maybe drawing a finer line and putting on more eyeshadow will do.. yet to try it on cause I'm so lazy! =X haha! and my fake eyelashes! so tired of putting them on. can I just get an extension? =X haha too much money to spend!

2008-08-22T00:34:00.002+08:00

this is the first time I'm featuring a video here, cause I hate how lag it will be. but this, really a must watch video. very touching. It touched my heart and I hope it did touch yours too..

have a nice day~

2008-08-11T00:33:00.002+08:00

hehe. couldnt resist but to blog cause I had a very funny day today.

woke up. went Pizza Hut to eat Brunch as well as to celebrate mother's birthday. no cake. no present. no cards. nothing at all. dint feel like a birthday celebration. lol.

went up to Kopitiam to use the coupon. ate ice kacang, cendol, kopi breakfast set and chengtang.

walked around. bought another Shoe! initially wanted to get this professional looking black shoe, but too bad, my size sold out already. are u kidding me?! I'm size 40! omg! how many giant foots out there? lol. was deciding whether to buy the white princessy look or the silverish goldenish which gives the glamours look.. my sister decides that I dont give the princessy vibe, rather glamours suits me better. hehe. nice nice shoe. which is REALLY walkable. cant wait to wear it already! erjie tried on this gladiator shoe.. nice~ but I have fat thick legs.. not advisable for me to get THAT one.. =(

went over to MoshiMoshi. telling jie which one I should get. the normal conventional ones which is so common or spend the same amount of money on a more designed ones? lol. I dunno. saving 30bucks for it. as long as it's silver =) I'm willing to spend on it. haha! if only I could afford GOLD.

walked over to JohnLittle. finally they are having sales again. hehe. 20% off storewide. grab my Maybeline define eyeliner, luckily it's waterproof! cant wait to try it on too. but not gonna wear it to school. I'm lazy. xD bought Fasio Point makeup remover. heard rave reviews about the old generation, so I'm trying on a new generation. cant wait to get dressed up! spent alot today. haha.

rushed back to put my shopping lots, and went for Belly Dancing class. today lesson was my forte. lol. hip movements. I'm weak at my shimmies. lol. just cant do it well. was hoping my teacher could teach us the whole set of dance instead.. it would be more fun that way.

rush home and went out again for dinner. eat until very full. went to Jurong Point with erjie. went in Crystal Jade on the 2nd floor to have the complimentary dessert. haha. we need minimum purchase so we decided to get the chinese tea instead. haha! total bill, $0.95! haha! my sister even joked that this bill will break their record for having the lowest bill ever!

we walked around again.. Charles and Keith.. try on the shoes.. since I bought a new shoe, I dont think I would want to spend another 30bucks for another shoe.. maybe next week. xD walked over to converse.. and to world of sports.. then finally to another Crystal Jade at level 3.

we sat in and ordered some fried stuff and a free bean curd. haha. nice. was very full already. talking crap with erjie. lol. she's my sunshine. haha! always make me happy. total bill, $3.30 better than the previous one. hehe.

went Bata to check out the shoes. nothing suits me. went home. super full.. so tired. told mom about our cheepo adventure. haha! my mother was laughing her head off while looking at that $0.95 bill from Crystal Jade. =) we made history man.

so tired. tomorrow still need to meet up with Ms Janny for more FYP stuff. sian. still got so much assignment going on. and I'm not even started half of the pile yet! god really help me.. =(

2008-08-08T02:25:00.002+08:00

ahh.. wanted to blog so much.. but hardly can find time. lol. I'm sacrificing my working and sleeping time to blog here. ==" really betahan. I wanna dao le.

this stress dint cost me to eat more.. it only cost me to shop more! I'm a shopaholic! yay! nowadays, rather windowholic.. haha. see this see that want this want that. no money buy and no time to buy. saw online some nice stuff that I want to get my hands on. haha. guess I'm coming up with another list of "I WANT THIS" =D

oh ya, thanks Johnson for ur gifts from Taiwan. =) was thinking why not buy me food from other countries? =X hehe.. he bought me 2shirts, which one I pass it on to Jeffrey cause it's BIG! one hair'cucuk'.. wasted cause I dont have super thick and long hair to 'cucuk' into la~~ dunno this guy know how to buy for ppl anot.. =X and a very sweet necklace. hehe. paris necklace.. dint get a chance to wear it cause it's so big! and it sits on the chest.. 0.0"! going france? =D buy me MORE! haha! thanks DUDE =P

babyDavs broke his wife. haha! he's buying a new wife soon..

my Jeffrey dear bought a NEW laptop. Acer brand. ( though I'm not much of a Acer fan ) and he dunno what to do with it. lolx. I'm crossing my fingers that he wont download all the games to play. lol. he got a 3-in-1 printer for free too.. how good was that deal man?

wanted to get my hands on the small laptop but realise, it's nothing much of a use since I'll be heavily graphic loaded.. might as well just get a MacBook can liao.. yeah. gonna get one with my salary when I got a job. of course, I wont be asking my parents to buy it for me.. haha. it's not a need, it's a want.

okay. I'm half dead here. flying off to my lala land~~

and I'm gonna miss the BEIJING OLYMPICS GRAND OPENING!! =(

2008-08-05T23:25:00.002+08:00

got this survey from bestie's blog. kinda bored now.

1.The way to win your heart?
\\ those who know will know.. \\

2.What did you do last night?
\\ sleeping, crying, arguing, chatting on the phone, smsing ahma, thinking and thinking and thinking, lastly sick. \\

3.what is ur fav. thing to do?

\\ fadai and be alone \\

4.Are you looking for a boyfriend/girlfriend?
\\ no. I'm looking for a understanding GIRLFRIEND. \\

5.One song that's meaningful to you?
\\ when you're gone - by Avril L. \\

6.Do you twirl or scoop your spaghetti?
\\ whatever it takes to eat.. \\

7.Do you drink milk straight from the carton?
\\ I prefer from the carton though unhygenic \\

8.How long is your hair?
\\ below shoulder. some one wants my hair to be longer than tt unbearable length. \\

Do you like Batman?
\\ if he got the money and muscle. I dont see why not? \\

10.Who was the last person who told you they loved you?
\\ who else but tt bastard of mine? \\

11.Addicted to anything?
\\ cosmetics. totally! still learning though =D\\

13.Do you like anyone now?
\\ yeah \\

14.When was the last time you sang out loud?
\\ not since I broke down \\

15.What did you have for breakfast?
\\ none of ur concern \\

16.when is ur best b'dae celebration?
\\ i dint want to hope too much for my bday... \\

17.are you attached? who is that person?
\\ duh~ jeff lo.. \\

18.Can you cook?
\\ yeaps. I aspire to be a vegan cook. anyone who doesnt like veggie can fk off from my kitchen \\

19.Did you have a nap today?
\\ no. there's no time for nap \\

20.What was the reason you got in trouble last?
\\ I'm always in trouble. was never out. \\

21.What do you wear more, jeans or sweats?
\\ jeans definately. I'm a jeannie! \\

22.When is your birthday?
\\ 6th Jan \\

23.Do you swear a lot?
\\ I only swear when I'm fking not happy and angry and frustrated \\

24.Where did you get the shirt(s)you're wearing?
\\ my camp\\

25.Do you have any regrets?
\\ definitely. \\

26.What was your first alcoholic drink?
\\ cant rmb.. think was XO from wedding dinner \\

28.What color are your favorite shoes?
\\ metallic red tone \\

29.Who would you like to see right now?
\\ no one \\

30.Are you a social or antisocial person?
\\ definately antisocial. \\

31.Have the cops ever come by your house?
\\ no \\

32.Ever been in love?
\\ yes \\

33.Ever had braces?
\\ I dont have to. I have straight teeth. thanks to my father and his parents and their parents. I'm blessed. cause my ancestor did not cheat anyone of their money in their lifetime. thank you! \\

34.Who was the first person to really break your heart?
\\ first? ChengKai. my biggest crush of all. second? Jeffrey. my lover. \\

35.who do you treasure most now?
\\ I treasure my friends now.. \\

36.Who was your first best friend and are you still friends with them?
\\ first? we broke up because everyone in sch assume that we're bf/gf. we lost contact a long time ago \\

37.Who was the last person to disappoint you?
\\ jeffrey \\

38.Do you trust people?
\\ i had walls. i dont trust ppl. \\

39.Who was the first person you talked to today?
\\ sister? \\

40.what do u wan to say to ur love ones?

\\ I love all of them. but I only hate my bf. lol. ( hate how much I love u - rihanna ) listen to that song dear. if u have time. \\

2008-08-05T09:56:00.004+08:00

yesterday or rather today, is a damn fucking sad monthsary.. i cried during our monthsary. how sad and pathetic. guess it was my hormones who's talking.. or rather the frustrated innerself.. dunno what the hell am I shouting for too..

he wont say those comforting yet protective words because he wasnt in "that" circle.. fancy bf telling me to protect myself instead of HE protecting me. I made a HUGE fuss about it.. only god knows what I'm thinking.. yeah. someone touched and I mean, the whole damn hand was touching my big huge butt and stroke my elephant thigh with so much gentle that I almost thought and WISH that It was Jeffrey who's doing the deed. from Dover to Jurong East. the horror. initially was okay, until he "moved" his little brother down there when his "brother" was leaning forward against my left beautiful butt. tt was pure gross. he proceed on to letting go of his secure hand which was holding on to the pole.. and lean hisbody againts mine so he wont fall when the train jerks, while I'm being sandwiched and breast-elbowed by another tall man infront. what am I suppose to do in this situation? before he left, he gentle remove his pervertic hands off my thigh and walk off just that. God.

initially dint want to tell my bf. maybe I shldnt have.

I rather tell my friend about it. at least they stand by me. thank you.

half-crying abt it, bf forgotten abt our monthsary.. I cant blame him. he's bz.

was chatting with bf. and messaging ahma at the same time. I found back my comfort, back in her. she had happy news with her. and I dont want to spoil her mood, so I dint tell her our problems then. I regretted neglecting them for him.. this mistake paid it's price.. and I'm truely regretting my action. hopefully my besties able to read this and I wanna apologise..

hopefully we could still have our girls day out.. and I promise.. it's all girls day out.. =) let's go clubbing! xD

to baba: SI BABA! die where le! =X get well soon! super fast recovery! =D still waiting for u to come singapore worh.. if I go Msia, tumpang ur kereta hor! xD

I just realise, nono, I realise long time ago.. we're of difference too much.. to him, is small matter. but to me, it MATTERS! things are getting too comfortable for each other.. we let loose of our inner monster. i hate it.

gonna keep myself EVEN BUSIER!
that's what JH told me.. did I tell u guys before? I admitted to him that I once, liked him? LOL! glad that he still IS my friend.. a friend that is free after august and rotting to death in his office.. =X soon, he'll see MR,BOTAK. david also seeing MR.BOTAK. so is QiQi! omg! suddenly, my guy friends all go botak.. lol!

I'm kinda curious how mr Deli look like in real life, despite being online friends for 3/4 years already.. amazing huh? you CAN find real friend through online.. just know how to pick.. another gentleman friend is Johnson.. =D the one who can really splurge on me, not with goods, but FOOD! *is that an insult??* haha.. but he's a man of his own world.. not even his gf can intrude into his world. lolx. stop smoking la! so smelly.. zzz and mr muscleman! been arranging and arranging meetup with him, but seems like neither of us are free.. no luck! mr deli's best friend is in SP. studying in the same Minor school as me. but, I NEVER SEE HIM IN SCHOOL!

ohhhh ya! yesterday I saw CS. omg. he's grinning from ear to ear. and I confirm he did took a few glance of me. unless my eye really cock. worst is, he's with a friend that bytch knows! gosh what a small world. and I dont get to see CK anymore.. he graduated.

ohh no. someone reminded me of BRAYANI! ==" wonder did he get back to his chio gf or not.. lost contact..

I wanna work! I wanna work work work! =D if time allows I wanna take more assignments.. or maybe work in other sector. hopefully I able to get through this sememster.. then next sem, i can work more often. then wont think nonsense anymore.

2008-07-25T01:01:00.002+08:00

there's alot things happened..

most recent one was.. something happened between me and my bf..

and I'm feeling so tired.. of everything..

Lecturer James just reprimanded us for our attendance.. lolx he offered 5K for us to come to sch.. lol.

my mom found out about us. and scolded me for being...

so, now, I have MONEY issues, RELATIONSHIP issues, FAMILY problems, SCHOOL AND FUCKING ASSIGNMENTS AND PROJECTS .. why does it ALWAYS got to be like tt.. freaking sian

I'm feeling so numb now.. even the bad things tt I imagined had came true.. I have no feelings at all.. everything just... phew~~ floating..

no doubt. ADD - attention deficit disorder. read up if u wanna know. whether u believe me or not, is up to ur personal opinion. I dont need to know. even fking doctors refuse to belive tt or there is such thing as ADD. what the fucking hell.

2008-07-22T00:59:00.000+08:00

here the poem i make for you

u r just standing in front of me..
but ur heart is ten thousand miles from mine..
it is unbelievable far distances..
u stand in front of me..
but u never know that i love u..

now u r far from me..
but my heart is ever-lasting thinking of u..
it is unexplainable gruesome feelings..
i imagine u are by my side..
but i know it wont become a reality..

u do look at me..
but i know im nothing for u..
it is unbearable flames of pain..
i don wan to lose u..
I will put u in my deepest part of my heart..
that are unable to be erased..
until the death..

written and copyrighted by Niel

2008-07-19T23:39:00.003+08:00

yellow hello bello!

lol

yay! I've became a moderator in Fr3b! =D

I'm going to start a new blog soon.. inspired by someone.. lolx.. it's mainly focusing on reviews and comments from me.. I dont want to do it in this blog cause there's so many PERSONAL things that ppl should not be let known so freely.. =D

so wait till I have time to do it up bah.. so lazy and BUSY these days.. and I'm falling sick like every single day.. zzzz.. and I NEED money! super duper poor now.. looking for work soon.. btwn a $6/hr job that I like or a $15/hr job that I'm totally clueless about or a 50cent/post job that I MIGHT get hired? feeling so tired~~~ lalala~~ HELLO PANDA!

today just got back from my bazaar.. FUCKING TIRED.. and exhausted! not to mention income was FUCKING BAD.. wrong target man! if next time I were to held a bazaaar, I would set it at clarke quay.. or somewhere where my work would be APPRECIATED! grrr! kinda irritated by it though..

suddenly have the urge to make new jewelleries again! gosh! everytime I started making, I couldnt stop.. unless my inspirations runs dry, I'll even give up my sleeping time for it! gosh! another reason for me to be HELLO PANDA!

last two days, thurs, meet up with Leewah and HweeHwee.. so long never see them already.. kinda miss them, back when we were so close.. now, each got own things to fret of.. no matter how busy the schedule, I believe we can always meet.. but looking at my schedule for the past 3weeks.. I take back when I've said.. unless I skip dinner with family, otherwise it's kinda hard for us to meet up..

when dad was about to go overseas.. I dint even ate dinner the night before he left.. I feel so sad.. how could I do this?! so when he came back, I make a point to reach home early to wait for dad to come home and eat together.. but either I was bathing and they started eating or I was held up and couldnt eat together.. haix.. feel so bad.. tml dad is leaving.. tonight, I dint eat dinner with him again.. how could I? chatted with dad awhile.. he seems to have something to tell me, but I dunno what.. when he returns.. I'm gonna be home to eat dinner with him.. and I SHALL!

cant deny tt I missed them alot..

Jeffrey dear just got back from a tiring and fun camp.. the week.. not having someone to chat with is so hard.. but thank god that he called or msg me everyday.. =D love u dear~

another one is Eugene.. there's something tt made me feel tt it's not even worth it to talk to him.. but I walked past his shop tt day.. chatted with him awhile.. there seems like nothing much to talk about.. he said tt he's quitting soon.. and rot till ns days.. lol I dunno if he's still mad at me, but at least he's happy tt I did find him to say hi..

surprisingly the 3rd person is not jiahui.. but Johnson.. he went overseas with his gf for like 1week? I dunno.. lol perhaps I've taken him as one of my confinde... I thought tt it's hard for online friend to be able to sustain the friendship especially AFTER we meet.. yeah.. he's a man of his own world.. dont worry dear, I WOULDNT want to be with him.. such HIS mindset is not what I will want for a boyfriend.. haha.. a gentleman and a sweet guy.. but a damn fking bastard at heart..

I FINALLY BOUGHT MY LIP BRUSH.. SOME DEEM IT AS WASTE OF MONEY.. SOME SEE IT AS A FORM OF EXPRESSION FOR MY DEPRESSION.. but I FEEL SO HAPPY AND COMFORTABLE KNOWING THAT I HAVE MY LIP BRUSH WITH ME CAUSE I CAN USE THE ELF TIN LIP EVERYTIME WITHOUT USING MY UNHYGENIC FINGER! YAY!

2008-07-04T17:39:00.002+08:00

ms CareBear is here to SHARE~

if anyone out there didnt knopw, there's this website that gives out free sample to people! but have to pay for postage lah.. hehe.. after all, it's better than buying magazines to just get that freebies right? =D the website is called Fr3b. I only wish they have links for me to link.. so people would know. lol

2008-06-27T15:31:00.010+08:00

~ are you younger than 19?
- I'm 19 NOW!

~ do you have the letter 'f' in your name?
- nope.

~ do you like the color green?
- nope

~ do you have a crush on someone?
- err.. no.

~ what song are you listening to right now?
- *lecturer's voice*

~ is there a place you would like to visit?
- yeaps. I want to visit my relatives abroad.

~ have you ever fell into a mud puddle?
- duh~ I even crawl and wrestle in it! xD it was fun

~ do you like winter?
- yeah, it get rid of my scalp problem cause it's cold and I get to soak in oil! just hate the wet part of winter.

~ does your screen name have numbers in it?
- no

~ are you in a band?
- used to be in Military Band, miss the olden days.

~ do you like parties?
- yeah. when I'm with one person and the rest of the room filled with strangers. it gets more fun!

~ what are you scared of?
- KACHUA!! losing something so precious to u.

~ how long have you had your friendster for?
- have no idea

~ Favorite beverage?
- nothing Gassy. tt'a all.

~ favorite place in school?
- school Computer Lab. cold + internet =D

~ if you could own a monkey, would you?
- nope. I aint a lovey dovey creature kinda girl.

~ do you own anything from america eagle?
- nope. it's too expansive.

~ favorite disney cartoon/movie?
- alot alot. lol.

~ what was your first IM name?
- funky. lolx! dunno y would I put tt!

~ do you have a nextel phone?
- nope.

~ have you ever given a random person your number?
- yeah. lolx. solely for business transaction only. ^^

~ how clean is your room?
- minus the dust from outside, it's really clean. xD

~ what color is your room?
- greenish blue? it changes from day time to night time. lols.

~ is there a calendar in your room?
- yes.

~ what are you excited for?
- our 2nd Anniversary.. ^^

~ do you have an addiction?
- yea. online shopping, manual shopping, makeup and EATING!

~ ever cried yourself to sleep?
- yeah.

~ what did u do today?
- wake up, slp, wake up, slp, wake up, eat, rush for gems, realised today no gems, went computer lab, ans a call from Jeffrey, went for class which I'm in now. yah.

~ do you get bored easily?
- yeah. I'm a ADD. no one believes me.

~ how many pillows do you sleep with?
- one pillow

2008-06-27T15:31:00.007+08:00

[x] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[x] You love music.
[ ] You have your own room.
[x] You own a mobile phone
[x] You have an ipod/ mp3 player.
[x] Your parents are still married.
[ ] You have more than 1 best friend.
[ ] There is a swimming pool/hot tub/trampoline in your backyard

T0TAL SO FAR:5

[ ] You dress how you want to.
[ ] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[x] There is a computer/ laptop in your room right now.
[ ] You have never been beaten up.
[ ]You NEVER cry more than twice a month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.

T0TAL SO FAR:3

[x] You have over 50 friends on friendster.
[x] You have pictures on friendter.
[x] Your parents let you have a friendster.
[x] you get allowance.
[ ] You collect something normal.
[ ] You sometimes look forward to going to school/work.
[ ] You don't wish you were someone else.
[ ] You play a sport.
[ ] You do something after school/college

T0TAL SO FAR:4

[ ] You own a car/truck/motor bike
[x]You usually don't fight with your mom
[ ]You are happy with your appearance.
[ ]You do not have any failing grades.
[x]You have friends.

T0TAL SO fAR:2

[ ] You know what is going on in the world
[ ] You care about many people.
[x] You know more than one language/learning a language
[x] You have a screen name.
[ ] You own a pet.
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[x] You don't have any serious enemies.
[x] You are a generally nice person

TOTAL SO FAR : 5

TOTAL OVERALL: 19
now count your numbers and multiply by 3 Then title this "MY LIFE IS ***% PERFECT !

my life is 57% Perfect!

2008-06-27T15:31:00.004+08:00

1. Would you kiss the last person you kissed, again?
+ yeaps. definately.

2. Have you told anyone you'd marry them?
+ dont really remember if I did.

3. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?
+ yeaps. on a healing process now..

4. Have you ever made a bf/ gf cry?
+ I dont know If I'm the one who made him cry..

5. Are you happier single or in a relationship?
+ whether Single or In a relationship, both has it's advantage and disadvantage.

6. Have you ever told someone you loved them and didn't mean it?
+ nope.

7. Have you ever had your heart broken?
+ yeaps.

8. Have you ever broken someone else's heart?
+ I believe I did. I was a real bytch back then.

9. Do you still talk to your ex/es?
+ yes.

11. If you could go back in time and change things, would you?
+ yes. many things I did I regreted, but life's aint giving u second chances, so forget about it.

12. Do you think you are a good bf/gf?
+ I dunno.

13. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
+ when the wound is too deep, even 10chances couldnt save it.

14. Have u ever liked anyone else's bf/gf?
+ yes and no. lol.

15. Like anyone right now?
+ like and love my Bf, Jeffrey.

16. Does that person like you back?
+ yeaps.

17. What are you going to do tonight?
+ hairmask, facescrub, facemask, probably plucking of eyebrow. lolx! weekends are for beauty!

18. How do you feel right now?
+ no motivation. hate it.

19. Have you ever been kissed upside down?
+ nope, never been kissed upside down, but I kissed him upside down. =\

20. What would you like to say to one person on your mind?
+ YOU'RE MINE! to Jeffrey. =X

2008-06-27T15:31:00.001+08:00

lolx. interesting quiz..
got it from friendster.

You look it over the following list
and see how many of these things you
have done. BUT you have to ADD up the
money amount along the way. Then post
the amount that you are as the title
of the bulletin.
PS: the smaller the better!

1. Had sex: $30.00
2. Smoked: $100.00
3. drank alcohol: $100.00
4. Went skinny dipping: $20.00
5. Kissed someone of the opposite sex:
$90.00
6. Kissed someone of the same sex:
$10.00
7. Cheated on a test: $100.00
8. Fell asleep in class: $10.00
9. Been expelled: $10.00
10. Been in a fist fight: $40.00
11. Given oral: $60.00
12. Got oral: $60.00
13. Prank called the police: $10.00
14. Stole something: $10.00
15. Done drugs: $20.00
16.Dyed your hair: $50.00
17. Done something sexually with
someone older (like a few years):
$20.00.
18. Courted someone OVER 18 (if your
under 18): $50.00
19. Ate a whole bag of oreos: $60.00
20. Cried yourself to sleep: $10.00
21. Said you love someone but didnt
mean it: $95.00
22. Been in love: $90.00
23. Got caught doing something that
you shouldnt have been doing: $80.00
24. Went streaking: $5.00
25. Got arrested: $10.00
26. Cuddled: $95.00
27. Peed in the pool: $5.00
28. Played spin the bottle: $30.00
29. Done something you regret: $70.00
Now add up and post as "I COST $......

omg. I cost $940! xD

2008-06-25T15:03:00.002+08:00

cant resist it anymore.. so bored here.. am waiting down here for Jeffrey dear to pick me up after school ( ps! my school ends at 9am today! ) I thought I heard him saying that he's free for the whole day? his sms said he's things left a little bit, means pretty soon I'll see him right? but I've waited for hours! gosh! can someone just come and pick me up for a ride first? I'm so dead here! my classmates either went gym-ing / gem-ing / HOME!

if not cause I choose TO GO OUT AND SPEND TIME WITH MY BOYFRIEND, I could have just joined my sister shopping at orchard.. grrr! I'm TIRED OF WAITING!! but nvm la.. see dear = happy le... ==" for now, just sulk and be angry with myself first.

bored bored.

so practically I'm "doing" my assignment since I dint managed to hand it up ( again ) on time.. yah.. so bored.. wanted to do assignment but damn damn fking unmotivated.. finished my less-important-yet-interesting assignment.. typography! ^^ yah.. left redoing of ENTIRE project management documents again.. gotta do it soon.. else lecturer will be bugging me again... ==" and this stupid shyt dreamweaver programming. wth m I doing here.

heard from Donald tt he wanna drop out.. ahh ~~ coming back to my YEAR one motto again.. PERSEVERE for the sake of my "future". for godsake. this IS NOT what I wanted to do all my life mummy.. stop pressing me! I wanted to work as a service crew for VVVVIPs, do my jewellery business ( not management plz. I suck at it ) and have loads of money so tt I can sponsor papa mama to go for a honeymoon trip! gosh!

anyway, gotta get through this.. after poly there's a whole new future waiting for me.. other than all the greatness and happiness after graduation.. horror! HORROR! I might not be employed after all. cause I'm a lousy, stupid shyt that cant even do a simple website for a fking customer. I DONT get to do what I want EVEN after graduating.. haix.. have to slowly slowly introduce Jeffrey back to my parents... and CHANGE their impression of him.. ( tt's hard ) get a fking highpay job so I can pay back my study loans and at the same time, saved enough money to convince my parents tt I'm OKAY! with a diploma.. I never wanted to study.. seems tt people around me kept pestering me to study. what's good about studies? If I like something, I will go and get it.. y must all push me to grab it? at the end of the day, when I'm damn fking frustrated with all the stress that YOU all brought upon me, I might just break off from everything..

everything as in, family, friends and even him.

as years passed, I'm drifting away from my friends, next my family.. and I hope I'm not drifting away from him.. after tt super tight big slap, I came back from Changchun.. my sister never fails to be there for me.. my sister once said that she's happy that I'm back with them.. I rarely spend time with them..

after what she told me.. tt's what made me not to install audition or any games for tt matter, so tt I could spend time with my sister, watching tv everyday.. thinking of tt, I'm suppose to uninstall maple once the school starts.. tt's a promise I made to myself.. but guess I'm too bz to even touch it ever since the last logout..

2008-06-12T02:39:00.011+08:00

okay.. long time no update.. basically.. got alot things happened.. start with my addiction with online shopping.. thank goodness that I still have this "doubt" when buying online.. ( tt's y I dont really digitally enhanced my pictures so my customers will get what they see ) so it's always a battle between US or Japan or China or Korea brands.. too much choices.. I ended up not buying anything ( which is good haha! )

yay! finally the picture is here.. just got back from Bugis shopping.. must admit it's one of the bargain hunter's favourite place.. you could get dirt cheap deals from here.. of course, quality is not in the list if you're looking for something tt can last longer than 1year. I'll be damn happy if my bag can even stand for 6months!

- orange and blue yoga mat from Watson - ( thanks Jeffrey dear for helping me carry it halfway! )

- purple meow cat long time no see plastic bag -

- pink clutch cum sling handbag - (additional strap given inside the bag )

- one bunch of makeup stuff from ELF and NuRenWoZuiDa -

- White enveloped like slingbag cum clutch -

- Grey bohemien string top -

- Dark brown + maroon 2inch covered heels from Mondo -

I bought this at a FarEastPlaza with HweeHwee.. hahas! she choose black heels. must really thank her for being so patient with me.. hahas! we've been walking to almost all the shoe shop there.. FINALLY found this awesome shoe! pointed toe = sharp creating a slimming effect, dark colors = for all functions, heels = high enough to add some height.

put my favourite gel padding for comfort, from School.

it still hurts.. =(

omg.. I'm so into makeups, shoes and bags now! well, kinda being influenced by some random "stranger" that roped me into makeups.. but hell no I'm gonna spend like her! she's a makeup FREAK! gosh! but I must admire her for her makeup skills.. so here I am, shopping for stuff to make myself look prettier..

bought all these from Online.. forgotten to include my favourite lipgloss in there.. =="

the CARE plus smoothing pre-makeup cream is an "cheap" foundation base.. cause they only sell it in small quantities and everytime have to buy more.. pretty good base just tt no color.. love the scent of it.. =)

1st row : Black and Midnight blue Brightening Eyeliner. basically is pencil eyeliner la. easy to apply. recommeded for people who's noob to make up. but it wont stay long.. my lids are oily so it run pretty fast.. everynow and then I have to re-draw it again. let me master it first before changing to liquid eyeliner which creates harsher line and last longer. recommeded!

2nd row : Brightening Eyeshadow, Drama. basically eyeshadow palatte, and my CandyShop lip tins, Melon Mayhem lipgloss. ^^ all imported from USA. again, same thing my oily lids, my eyeshadow all runs already by the time I walked to mrt station.. so ya.. NOT recommeded for oily lids peeps like me.. CandyShop LipTins, MelonMayhem IS A SUPERB lipgloss! it makes your bf wanna kiss you even more! haha! has melon taste, has glitter, has gloss just tt you gotta apply it onto your lips using finger or lipbrush.. which is kinda troublesome to some people.

bags~! bags~! bags! I wish I could have MORE bags! =X

1st : quirky stuff are my style. yeah. cheaper version of America's famous tote bag.

2nd : actually is sisters' but just take it together cause I'm gonna use it too! love versetile bags. especially it's in candy color cause now it's SUMMER! candy is BACK!

3rd : another quirky finds again.. ^^ simply love this enveloped bag / clutch so much! found a leather version of it around bugis street too and it cost 25SGD$? and this envelop clutch is found in DOROTHY PERKINS! talking about value for money.. haha!

and I have a new conffession... CHOCOLATE AT WISMA ATRIA BASEMENT1... IT'S PURE BELGIUM CHOCOLATE! $SGD1.25 PER GRAM seriously worth the money! tt's if you have around $SGD50 to spare la.. that time I bought $SGD35 dollars worth of chocolate home xD my sis dint nag me after eating one piece out of it.. haha! see how THESE chocolate made a women? so men? go and get those to "hong" your gf bah.. ^^ omg! I simply love their alcohol chocolate range.. the alcohol is INFUSED together with the chocolate.. omg! this is what I like! enough said.. go and grab them now! (ps: auntie THANKS! )

this is so far my ( me n my sister's )collection of alcohol in my cupboard. my parents have this one whole cupboard filled with DOM! lolx! yesterday my sister's friend just bought us Bailey's.. ^^ gotta add tt to our collection.. but lazy retake pic la.. =X our house actually have a "bar" table especially for those who really drinks.. LOL! maybe next time I take more picture of it.. xD I'm a drinker but I'm not drunken. Jeffrey dear dont like me to drink, so we made a pact.. 2weeks once. haiyo.. =\

yeah. dint took up the job that pay so generously OMG ==" I must be stupid.. yeah. dunno what has gone into my mind. I'm totally seriously BROKE to the core now.. so DONT JIO ME GO OUT!! ahh.. take this time to revamped abit here n there for my shop.. do some pieces.. no inspirations.. =\ and I'm fat! yes! ==" everyone around me say I'm getting fatter and fatter.. okay okay.. I get you.

lols.. posting these for fun! these are what I used on my hair. excluding the Lucidol hair wax matt (purple).. these are the few "extras" that have been working so hard for me.. =D time to reward them!

1st : Wella HighHair Gloss Serum, this small bottle easily cost me $SGD30! ==" but I gotta admit, a few sprays I get shinny, healthy looking hair, vibrant color from my few streaks of red highlight, and non frizzy plus it's easier to comb after that! tt's y my red highlights look so nice is cause of this small monster.. xD

2nd : Loreal Color-Vive Daily Instant Treatment Non Rinse Essence, whether this product for work anot I dunno but I definately saying that my Virgin Black hair can maintained it's red streak for more than 1month ( my hairdresser says within 2weeks my reds will be gone ), so guess this DOES do it's job. featured in Cleo in recent CLEO magazine too.

3rd : Dove Moisturetheraphy Intensive Repair Lotion, strong smelling product, smells like just came out of bath, very smooth to hair, still have frizz but if put too much will weight down the hair, so be mindful when you apply.. I only apply these to the ends of my hair so tt it wont fly all over my face. =D

of course, I do hair mask as well, Loreal Anti-Frizz and some salon color hair mask.. yeah.. hair mask does really work, but it takes alot patient. result dont just come overnight!

2008-05-30T23:38:00.003+08:00

sitting down in the toilet.. kept thinking about things.. tears just flowed down.. no matter how much i wiped them, they keep coming back.. just very disappointed and sad.

2008-05-30T16:59:00.003+08:00

yesterday went out with Eugene.. I pon class for him to accompany him to his modelling intereview at ParkMall.. so meet him le.. nothing much.. he hasnt changed.. go inside.. was waiting like FREAKING LONG for him la.. ==" so tempted to just walk out of the building, and go makan first.. grrr! when he come out, he wan go smoke. I went to toilet.. then I NORMALLY GO TOILET VERY SLOW DER MA... this fker dunno what's patience.. call me to hush me.. like I care you wait outside a? man man ten! we go eat kopitiam.. he buy food le then eat straight away.. like hello? cant you wait? then eat fucking fast la.. and hurry me again.. I HATE people tell me to do things faster.. knn.. purposely eat DAMN slow.. make him wait until pekchek.. lolx then we talked about things la.. until I said, i wait for you so long just now, you now wait awhile cannot meh? then he ans, I wait for you to come back from Changchun to play with me you also never play.. ==" is YOU who say dont want to play already cause want to cut off from internet world.. so WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT??! then walk to play LAN.. finally can audition le.. yay! walk there... talktalktalk... then he smokesmokesmoke.. he kinda surprise why I let him smoke infront of me.. cause, see the fker so xingku.. just let it be lo.. then reached there.. checked in.. then he just... practically he just doesnt care.. sit down le all he care is about himself.. really an ASSHOLE.. when playing game.. ok la.. he good enough to "pei" me play Audition.. but is cause he cannot play Granado Esprada.. whatever.. when we playing tt time, he keep kacau me.. to make me lose.. fker.. when I play game I'm playing it seriously la.. knn.. irritating leh.. then i purposely beat him make him lose.. then he buaysong me liao.. grrr! like i VERY SONG with you a! going off le.. then he just zao like tt.. he walk damn fast der lo everytime.. cannot wait meh? I got FAT and SHORT legs la.. cant walk the same speed as I am meh? If you're rushing for time, TELL ME.. but he's not! ggrrrr! then he say he's going home to eat dinner.. knn! ccb! tt fker say wan eat dinner then say dont want.. what you take me for? I told mama already I'm not eatting dinner at home le.. then he say he wan accompany me eat.. I dont want.. I dont see a point seeking a fker sitting infront of me while I eat.. I for sure NO APPETITE! then I bring him to the place where me n dear eat the sushi 99cents tt one at Cathay.. then he damn happy.. called his mom an say he's not coming back for dinner le.. he's eating out.. FUCKER... F-U-C-K-E-R!!! ccb lo.. then he order damn alot la.. ==" say wan save money, in the end, dinner BOOM so ex.. ==" I at that point of time ALREADY LOST ALLLLLLLLL my appetite le.. dear seems disappointed when I say qiqi pei wo eat.. then I already sad sad le.. then later on, Eugene keep telling me to eat my sushi and stop msg-ing.. HELLO! WHO THE HELL ARE YOU TO TELL ME OFF?! knn. then I eating dear say his mama ask him eat outside.. S0BS0B =( even more I feel damn sad.. cannot pei him.. and have to face this fker.. goin home le.. go toilet again.. he still feel pekchek waiting for me.. ==" smmore push door dont hold for me der.. DAMN UNGENTLEMAN! SINGAPOREAN MEN ARE HOPELESS! grrr! even my guy friends hold the door for me lo.. wtf! I just keep quiet all the way.. I'm DAMN tired, DAMN angry, DAMN irritated, DAMN sad, DAMN DAMN regret going out.. he dont even bother to send me to mrt.. just say goodbye at the traffic light.. at the traffic light he asked me.. so today how? I said, we both changed.. you and me also got changed.. then he said, but I've tried to talk to you le ma.. ERR.. IF I ASK YOU A QN AND YOU DINT ANS AND EXPECT AN ANS FROM ME WHEN YOU ASKED ME.. is tt call a conversation fker? I walked off saying GOODBYE.. and NOT turning back..

in mrt, he msg me.. whatever he wrote.. was as if he's meeting me to make me happy.. and not for the sake of maintaining the friendship that we had.. he said he's happy too.. but I doubt so. I scolded him in our sms.. yeah. but tt is what I really want to tell him.. he did try to make me happy and laugh.. yeah, but I laugh for the sake of not wanting to appear sad.. but my face can tell everything.. I can laugh one moment and smile widely the next second, I'm could be in tears..

I seriously dunno what you want.. I can see by the way you look and your body language towards me, you still like me.. everytime I'm not looking at you, you're looking at me.. why look away when I look at you? at the end of the day, yah I am VERY sad.. cause the old you that I knew.. has gone.. and I regreted going out with you instead of accompanying my bf..

when I reached home, I slpt on the couch.. not wanting to bother about what happened today.. when my dad wake me up, he scolded me about my school attendance because I've received warning letter already..

whatever it is.. I'm not in a good mood.. and we just of a DIFFERENT world..

2008-05-24T02:03:00.002+08:00

lol finally could get a "breather" thou it's not really.. haha.. have to rush for this and that.. so bz and TIRING..

today, was chiong whole night for the report submission.. slpt for 5hours.. which is LUXURY compare to the pathetic 2hours of sleep for the past few days.. damn damn tired.. everytime I lie on ANYTHING.. I will fall asleep immediately.. =\ went late for GEMS like 1hour.. lols. I dont bother to get any attendance, this teacher is pretty strict.. if I would have know earlier, I might as well dont come.. lol =X but cannot, need to meet project partners to have SOME discussion..

I managed to SQUEEZE some research for GEMS thou.. but seems like they dont even bother to do anything.. nevermind. I enter the classroom, so many pair of eyes are looking at me.. cause the DSLR CAMERA AND TRIPOD is helping me to make a BIGGG enterance~~ =)

after GEMS, chiong to T19.. asked lecturer whether Jeffrey could come along ma.. lolx. saw mr leon after umpteen times tried to call him HE REFUSE TO ANSWER OUR CALLS!!

" leon, my friend interested to join us for the photo shoot later.. can he join? he's not from SP der la.. outside.."
"mmm.. outside a? friend? or boyfriend? *grins*"
"*Stunned* err.. ya. boyfriend. *smiles* "
"ok la.. shouldnt be a problem la.. "

lolx. sms dear about it and went to one of the labs to CHIONG AAA!! stupid printer got problem again.. making me LATE for the photography shoot.. but, well, no one's early anyway. lolx =X THE STUPID DSLR IS SO DAMN BULKY!! but I needed almost all of the things inside there.. hai.. along with that stupid tripod.. I really hated tripod alot.. no matter how much fun it is to assemble or how much stability it gaves me.. I HATE TRIPOD to the CORE!! urgh! feel like throwing it away..

today's lighting is seriously DAMN BAD.. I hate it so much that I rather not take SHOOTS with it and come back tomorrow.. lighting so bad.. I hate it when you have to "zheng" the settings just to make it nice.. to me, photography is about capturing the best moments.. so dont bother to ask me to "zheng" whatever shyt settings to make the picture look the best..

so damn tired.. we moved from Clarke Quay to Esplanade.. we were walking away from the SINGAPORE ARTS FESTIVAL OPENING at 8pm today! cause I forgotten about it.. wakao.. and there's fireworks at there.. OMG LA......!!!!!! pekchek pekchek! should have just follow dear's suggestion.. ==" grrrr!

damn sian damn sian.. and my camera has specs of DUST on it's mirror INSIDE... ==" cannot clean outside if not, more dust will go in.. damn sian........................ and it doesnt help when DONALD is hogging onto MY camera... super duper sian.. anyway, nvr mind la.. let him use lo since I hate the lighting so much.. lols. the view at esplanade is nice, perfect for making panoramic shoots BUT there's construction mechine there.. DESTROY the whole scene already, but my friends said nvm.. err... really la. it DOES destroy the whole photo.. well, if you dont mind, go ahead. I mind so I dont take. my meat your poison. =)

wanted to go to "poppai".. dunno what tt dunno serve what dunno where. lol. Zoe said it's nice but it's getting late and dear have to go home early.. and I CANNOT pangseh him like tt.. so suggest I go eat with him lo.. next time got chance then go with them bah.. then Zoe look damn sian alreadi.. lol. sort of she knows that I will pangseh her for him. well, what to do? anyway, I very happy that dear willing to come all the way to Esplande to find me.. and just having a dinner and zao home le.. lol. although I might be cold towards him when I'm with my friends, but I told him already not to be so close if not, people will feel uncomfortable..

we went to eat this new Japanese restaurent.. lolx. they have student meal WHOLE DAY! looking at their menu price, I tink I'll eat student meal better, more worth it. lol. dont even bother to order a drink cause it's really damn ex. =="

go home le.. like hughug dear.. but on mrt neh eek! love to sniff his scent from his clothes.. lol. although some people will say it's YUCKY to love the "smelly" smell.. but hey! all of us are attracted to one another through scent emit from each own body.. dont you know? lol..

was so tired.. now even when I'm typing, I'm gonna fall asleep soon. my home electric bill has gone up DOUBLE the amount.. and mama is SUPER unhappy about it.. guess tml gonna b a tough day! aaah!

2008-05-21T22:17:00.002+08:00

wasnt what I've expected. too long. but great. $60.

TIRED AAAA TIREDDDDD...

=="

damn damn tired..!!

argh!

I'm getting "high" on this kinda feeling but couldnt help keep falling asleep once I sit down or lie down.. argh! still got so many things to settle.. ~~!!

this morning lesson I keep sleeping in class.. practical. HAD NO CLUE WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ABOUT.. ==" hoping my assignment I wasnt talking crap through my report la.. if not, DIE! =="

my hair color sucks.. big time. the red strips on top became BROWN!! and it flow to the whole head! argh! I DONT want to have BROWN color in my head!! get it off me!!! my other red strips are still red as usual.. such an ugly combination.. but cannot go to salon nah.. mama dun let me dye blue again.. was asking her permission to bleach and highlight blue.. cool man~~ lol.

was searching high and low for blue color hair wax.. the one I bought from changchun, hello kitty color hair wax wasnt strong enough.. you can only see it underneath the light.. after awhile, it became like, bleanded in with your hair color.. wasnt that nice at all.. =\ waste my money. so ex le..

I want to buy so many things!! but super sort of cash.. ==" needed to work.. but have not find one suitable job that I want..

sian~~~

2008-05-17T02:28:00.006+08:00

problems = drinking, self-inflict-torture, sleep only when became unbearablely tired, retail-theraphy, indulgence in many activities to keep one busy, cry.

so... since I cant own more than 3pair of shoes ( that's what mom said ) I was looking for the best heels in town to splurge in.. was looking at NineWest since most magazines would suggest to go for it.. BUT it's cater more towards the matured womens instead of teeny-women like me.. so, was looking around until that day when I stepped into ALDO.. woosh! I LOVE ALDO! although I have yet to buy any of them yet, I love the concept and their shoes~ woosh~ carries the TYPE that I've been looking for AGES! omgomgomg! so excited! I'm gonna save REAL hard to earn this stupid freaking $100++ shoes! ^^ gogo Karen! been scrimping ALOT these days, for ONE nice walkable high heels, though fengshui master advise me agaist trottering around in heels cause I'm prone to twisting my ankle very often.. ( dunnid to say, even a simple ICE SKATING has twisted my ankle, dont even mention heels ) argh! howhowhow?

just visited ALDO's website and saw their SO PRETTY shoes! here's my choice. mostly platforms cause I need it to balance up my FAT figure.. and what I love is that their material is made of LEATHER! kinda "comfortable" to wear on I guess.. hmm, one day I'm gonna get my feet into one of these~ even if it's out of seasons I WILL HUNT IT DOWN!

KillingWorth - $USD100

seriously killing me. such awesome shoe! one's classy another one's rocker chic!

Santurce - $USD80

sexy kitty tied up in ribbon~ woots!

Firilie - $USD100

sweets! perfect for attending almost everything! VERSITILE I like!

Lorenskog - $USD90

another sweets! but look rather usual..

Fanoa - $USD100

sexy~ love peeptoes! love (small) platforms!

Paramaribo - $USD100

I always wanted a nude color shoe yet not so invisible.. so, camel color's perfect! love the T bar!

Brufut - $USD100

I like the silverish finish plus, it's platform and slingbacks!

BrownsWega - $USD110

look rather plain. but who cares! ankle strap, Tbar, open toe, platform! what more can you ask!

Antiguo - $USD300

wooow! so ex! too glam for my style, but it's up here cause it ROCKS!

Bende - $USD100

meshymeshy~ always been looking for this!

Felornda - $USD90

nice straps! like this gladiator feel, but I have thick ankle cant really pull this baby off least I want to look like a piglet trottering around.. =(

Coquitlam - $USD60

damn nice this flat. glam + comfort + beachy. takes you everywhere!

Fariya - $USD90

woohoo~ finally the gladiator SHOE! nice straps! the same reason why it's up here.. it's the IN shoe, the lastest fashion though it's been around for ages just that no one dares to wear it out. I cant pull this off! wasted. =\

all shoes images are COPYRIGHTED by ALDO!

*shaking the piggy bank*

2008-05-16T00:31:00.003+08:00

today FINALLY meet up with jeffrey to have dinner..

the rest of the story, refer to our blog.

been very very tired.. some days I only had 2hours of sleep while some lucky days I'll have 6hours of sleep.. on weekends, if nobody's asking me out, I'll be able to slp 13hours straight.. LOL! I'm super super deprive of sleep, yet there's so many things to do..

want to find a job.. so at least I can pay off certain stuff on my own.. dunnid rely on my parents.. but thinking, hoping that the job is really flexible.. so I can arrange the timing for me to work..

tml I'm going for an interview.. WISH ME ALL THE BEST! ^^

changed a new phone.. Sony Ericson Z770i. lols.. was wondering should I go and do a gmask for it since I like the phone pretty much and I'm gonna use it for like 2years? yah.. so should I or should I not.. still thinking.. =="!

lately, people around me been telling me that I'm fat and I should slim down.. fine fine.. going on a diet plan now.. works for me.. lost 4kg for the past 4 weeks.. ^^ planning to exercise more, get my old muscles going, but I ''twisted" my ankle while ice-skating and it hurts till now.. ==" plus, my knees caps are giving me problems.. how to jog like tt.. I did brisk walking instead.. still pain..

planning to buy really padded knee support so that I can jog.. planning to buy ankle support too.. lols.. I want to learn Ice-Skating! I'm more interested in learning how to move and stop.. lols..

I hate to talk to Jeffrey on msn. whatever we chatted he will forget. seriously, I doubt he really put me in ANY FUCKING position in his mind or heart.. hai.. toy toy..

there is so many things that I want to say, but I cant.. the only person I can confess to is baba.. but he's not in singapore.. haix.. lols.. I still rmb tt time I say, I very sian and asked baba to fly over to ChangChun and pei wo for that few weeks.. lols! he said, " I have only enough money to make one trip.. if I fly over, I'll have to stay there.. then you gonna leave me here after that? " lols.. but he dint came of course, he's busy with his game, as always, and always going out.. until that day, when we dance and club whole night and dint even have the time to tell him that I went out the whole 2days.. he got worried that he bought an Overseas prepaid calling card to call me.. lols.. when he wanted to call me that time, my China handphone has no more credit value. LOL! then now he want to call me, my phone bill for sure will explode.. lolx.. wait till I grab hold of papa's phone then say bah. LOL!

2008-05-15T00:12:00.002+08:00

wasnt up to my standard. $27.

dint really have lunch today.. head giddy.. was hungry from 9am.. then until 4pm, I finally HAVE to eat something, tio gastric again.. argh! cant even walk right.. have to slouch abit even then still pain.. hate it everytime when I have gastric.. so mafan. ==" ended up, I binge on.. and fell asleep on the couch until 9pm then I woke up, HAVE to eat dinner.. and I feel like puking now.. thinking my tummy aint digesting properly.. =="

yay! tml I get to eat BANANAS!! yummy~ ^^ everytime eat banana / papaya for sure go toilet wan.. lols.. but BANANAS are yummy~! I can make it my breakfast, lunch and dinner if I could.. lolx!

told baba abt my secret.. I'm glad that he dint see me in a differ light, instead he advice me.. lol usually when I tell people abt it, they will shun or avoid talking to me.. I dunno what will happen in the future but baba made me to promise him something.. I dunno whether I could keep that promise or not, I dint agree..

my parents now know that I have a god-brother.. which was since last 3years ago.. lolx.. yeah. till now we still haven meet each other.. he was hoping to see me attend his 21st bday party, but my parents wont allow.. they say it's not that the party or the timing, is what if something happen, where and who should they find.. yah. I understand, I'm trying to talk terms with my parents so they will understand from MY point of view.. so I sat down in their room and start talking.. I made it clear to them that I want to ask permission cause I respect them.. I can easily said it was for project work and zao to his party.. but I dint. I hate it that everytime I had to lie to them to go out.. there's nothing wrong with my friends and there's nothing wrong for me to meet up with my outside friends..

my dad actually asked me in a confronted manner, which I'm scared of but I managed to talk nicely with him.. eventually, he said it will be best if you could stop all this and concerntrate on your studies since it's your final year.. I agree, that's y I'm trying my best not to slack now but it's hard. =X lolx.. so I'm guessing they know abt me n Jeffrey already.. papa said, that I'm the most sociable among my sisters.. and asked me what's my plan for my future.. then mama said that I should go University and get a degree then get a job.. but I told them that I wanted to come out to work first, make some money, pay off my own tution loan fee ( which I know it's not cheap ), take my time to decide which degree that I really want to do because I dont want to regret next time doing something I dont like.. eventually I did consider of getting a degree.. not that I dont want, is I MUST find a passion and doing it.. forcing myself to study like this 3years of poly is making me go crazy and I'm really not happy doing it.. I find that no point doing something I dont like and not happy, in the end, I wont gain anything but a paper.

we ended the conversation with some random stuff.. papa mama wanted to express so many of their thoughts to me regarding us, their children.. and I have to defend for my sisters.. I dint got angry or pekchek, infact I'm very happy that they willing to tell me what's on their mind.. so at least we could work somethings out..

part of the reason why I dont want to go into University now is because my sister is enrolling into University at the same time as I could.. and I know that school fees aint that cheap when it comes to tertiary education since we're not singaporeans.. so I rather back off, let my sister study.. like that when I'm earning the money, I could help papa to ease some burden off too.. not much, but at least something..

mama papa said I've changed. yeah. I do agree that I've changed. I become more.. emo than my usual emo self last time.. I enjoy experiencing pain, which people find me pervertic.. who would like to press their own blueblack? I do. lol.

2008-05-08T22:20:00.003+08:00

yesterday, wednesday, 7th may..

having only 2hours of sleep the day before, it's so hard to wake up and rush for my 8am lesson in class.. as usual, late AGAIN. =\ my head is spinning that I feel like puking anytime.. guess I really deprive of sleep this time.. after school, went to meet Cheryl, Ginny, Joanne and bunch of MM guys for lunch, as usual wednesday lunch is with them.. lols.. some how I felt abit extra.. across our table, I saw Luke with his ''gf'' I suppose, we dint great but acknowledge each other, the table beside us is my Yuan Ching juniors.. lols.. small world I guess.

I was msging my friend, Johnson and Eric was asking am I msging my bf.. lols.. he dont believe me when I told him that I'm msging my guy friend and I'm meeting another guy friend.. lols ==" well, was damn hungry but decided not to eat since I'm meeting JiaHui, my senior + friend + ex-swensens collegue + ex-crush for lunch.. lols. so, was like.. trying to resist the temptation of my friend's lunch beside and infront of me.. aaa~ crazy.. was so damn tired, nearly fell asleep while seating again.. chatchat awhile more, JiaHui came.. lols.. was asking him to call me when he reaching SP so I can go out n find him, instead he walked all the way in to FC4 to find me.. lols..

he came to our table, which left 7 guys and me cause the rest left for GEMS class already, and he kinda dunno what to do.. lols.. so I take my leave and went to another table with him.. lols.. I thought there would be silence and awkward moments but haha.. we were laughing and talking abt things that happens in the past.. he showed me his new iTouch.. yadayada.. it makes me even more want to get my hands on the new iPhone.. he said there's new generation of iPhone is coming.. hopefully, I can resist the temptation of getting one! aaaahh!!

yeah, so he WIFI with his NEW iTouch and checked the cinema and movies.. lols.. he wanted to watch DOOMSDAY but I watched it alreadi and I wanted to watch Ironman but he watched it alreadi =\ sian.. then he INSISTED to watch SpeedRider? smthing like tt la.. but it's not in the box office yet.. so he suggested to what WHAT HAPPENS IN VEGAS.. since I'm meeting my senior in ToaPayoh at 6pm.. we went to AMK to watch instead.. ahhh~! after so long! finally can watch at AMK cathay.. lols.. I like it there cause it's BIGGGG yeah.. we queing tt time.. lols he took his iTouch and ''booked'' the nice seats so others cant get it.. and then when it's our turn to buy the ticket, he release it.. LOL! kiasu. then he abit pekchek cause I nvr tell him I dont want anything from the kiosk.. huh? I was like.. huh? he nvr ask how I know I AM suppose to tell him wor.. then he ask I want or not, then I asked him back la.. if he want, then we share, dont want then dont want la.. ==" weird la u.. =="

we went in and THE CINEMA IS FREAKING COLD LA! @.@" he kip complaint than I took so long to reply a msg.. ==" ( I'm still talking to my guy friend, Johnson ).. grrr the show was okay la... good if you're watching with your couple.. not very nice in my opinion, and he laugh so loud at the jokes.. @.@""! got once, we all know that the Male lead actor is going to pee in the kitchen sink, before they even show the scene, HE BURST INTO LAUGHTER! omg! the whole cinema is quiet awaiting for the scene to come and he just went, BUAHAHAHAHAAHA!! =="

cause I cant sit too long in the cinema couch, else I'll get tired.. so I frequently sat front instead of leaning behind.. then he would ask me y arent I'm leaning.. lol ==" duh~ If I'm tired u tink I want to lean smmore? anyway, we went walking around.. hahas.. he asked me y arent I'm seeing anything.. ==" cause I have no money, and I dont want u to see me when I'm shopping and I might bored u to death if I do so.. lolx =X so we just drag our lazy feets around the mall then his agent from RecuritExpress kept calling him reg his job, it's a good thing but he finds it irritating.. and I find it irritating when you KEEP asking me whether shld u take up the job.. ==" since u asked, I gave my opinion, make your decision and shutup. quit asking and saying the same thing over n over again, you're behaving like a GIRL! argh!

he made me so ''frustrated'' that I lead both of us to take the wrong train, took the train back to JURONG EAST! u know what it means if I'm hinting, I WANNA GO HOME~~! but obviously I cant, have to go toapayoh to meet my senior.. yeah.. yada yada.. we reached and waited for her.. meet her, wow. changed damn alot.. and yah.. so she intro me the job. woah. the moment I step into the office.. I was like, oh no.. I'm gonna quit this job like NOW.. lols.. so, I'm just staying on to ''humour" her.. it was boring =X and I can sense JH is bored and restless.. LOL! so m I. ==" trying to hard to keep my eyes open for her.. yeah. then we quickily zao and went to eat.. toapayoh mall have like.. nothing? first time being there but, nth impress me.. lols. so we went to IMM to eat dinner.. lols..

papa called me, and he sounds SUPER ULTRA UNHAPPY with me.. kept asking me is a guy or a girl.. ahh~! make me so embaress that I have to lie to my dad infront of the whole mrt crowd.. argh! we walked there lols.. it's like dark, few people ard.. and was like the romantic place to be with your bf.. haha.. then there was this uncle, me n JH was walking at the edge of both sides so he could walk straight in between us, ( the side walk have mud ) then he purposely walked to the mud side and zoom pass us.. I was like.. diao? make so nice for u u go walk there.. ==" lols.. then there was this path to IMM where there's no light at all.. he was like asking whether I'm scared anot.. lol.. I have SLIGHT night blindness but I AM scared of falling into the drain cause I cant really see where is it.. so I have to rely on the people infront of me and gauge..

we went to eat this HongKong blabla.. infront of Daiso, he say it's nice, but I find it so-so only la.. was actually rushing for time.. so chopchop eat, chopchop drink then zao. lols. I confess to him saying that I used to like him before I have Jeffrey and told him everything else la.. lols.. then he was surprised that I confess.. LOL.. he said he was shocked and honored that someone actually did like him.. haha I was complaining abt what he did during our first date.. lols.. he deny it.. ==" he said he suspect I like him, but put off the idea.. then he kept pestering me to tell him y I like him.. ==" irritating! he's a mama's boy.. lols.. I hope he dint feel offended when I say that straight into his face.. =X was feeling kinda relax after telling him all these, somehow a burden just lifted off my shoulder.. I'm taking my chances cause I'm too dead tired to think of the consequences.. I dont know whether he will avoid me or not, but I wont forget the friendship that we had..

we seriously chated alot.. lols.. he did ask quite a fair bit of qns abt my bf.. anyway, I told him that my parents wanted to chase us out of the hse by the time we were 20.. then usually, my friends will say, aiyah.. they saysay only, wont chase u out der.. or, so u gonna rent a room outside? how u gonna pay? lols.. but he said, I wont mind if u crash into my hse la.. then I was like, shocked to hear his ans.. I just smile and said, nah.. and changed topic..

wanted to sit bus back home, then NO MORE BUS LE~~ aaaarrggghhhhh~! have to walk all the way back, then when we crossing the road. me as usual JUST cross.. LOL.. and he damn pekchek with the way I cross the roads.. he wanted to like, u know hold me to WAIT for the car instead of chiong infront before the car.. ==" we're at the zebra crossing what.. so, JUST walk la.. =\ whenever I mention abt the past, he rmbs every one of them.. tot usually guys will forget abt it.. so tempted to play xbox with him again, but no time la..

he wanted to send me home, but I reject, talk in the train until.. in the end, we alight at boonlay. lols.. yah, I went back myself and he took the train back..

back home.. I was so dead tired.. login msn also abit no meaning ler since Jeffrey is not in.. having Viper baba nagging me the whole night.. I still slp at 3am.. dunno what has gone into me..

** this content is solely written for my memories WITHOUT the consideration of other people's feeling. if any *ouch* is felt, I sincerely apologise to you. **

2008-05-02T17:08:00.002+08:00

yesterday was a greenday in fengshui calender, no wonder things dint turn out well..

anyway, ytd was hurtful..

back at home,
I chatted with Johnson.. lols.. still want to do the same thing to me.. lols.. I trusted him, so I dont think he will do anything to me..

chatted with baba.. he starts to behave like Jeffrey.. and I start to drift away from him..

sometimes, I have no one to turn to.. other times, I dunno who I can turn to..

I have no self confidence at all.. where have all my confidence gone to?

the old Karen maumau was already dead.. maumau is a flirt.. really a bitch.. sometimes, I hope she dint do what she did.. but who m I to stop her? I wont stop her, I'll kill her.

2008-05-02T01:20:00.002+08:00

1) Single, Taken, Naked, or Flirty?
♥ ''single'' & ''taken'' take your pick.

2) Are you happy with that?
♥ sort of. but I prefer not to stay in between.

3) Would you still kiss your ex?
♥ if he's not a jerk or a bastard that I left him for, I might reconsider.

4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
♥ I broken many hearts, karma has return. haix

5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is okay?
♥ I used to say, yes.. now I will say, no. If I like another guy, I'll tell u.. and I hope you will do the same in return..

7) Have you ever talked about marriage with another person?
♥ yeah. with my besties, bf, my guy friend.. lols

8) Do you want children?
♥ If I could have a say, I would say no. I'm not ready.

9) How Many?
♥ ... I'm not a pig.

10) Would you consider abortion?
♥ if the guy doesnt mind the HUGE hole, I might consider it. but I will be emotionally depressed.

11) If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
♥ yah. I like a guy who have the courage to tell me straight in the face rather than being shy.

12) Do you want someone you can't have?
♥ yeah.. I dunno whether I had that someone or not.

13) Have you fallen in love?
♥ yeah. and I felt idiotic now. but it was really wonderful.

14) Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
♥ yeah. it makes you remember that I have someone by my side all this while.

15) Do you believe that you can change for someone?
♥ I'm already changed for someone.. and I've changed cause of someone.

16) Is it a good day today?
♥ yes and no. it's a green day in the fengshui calender.

17) Have you ever broken a heart before?
♥ yeah. and I want to apologise to them. and I'm very sorry to eddie, but he refuse to give me a chance to say sorry.

18) Does your ex still have feelings for you?
♥ I hope not, cause I've moved on and I hope he has too..

19) Do you still have feelings for them?
♥ he composes songs and sings them.. nope, I wont go back to him.. he's my ''brother'' now.

20)You wish to have a bf/gf for now?
♥ I dont know I have one or not now.. but it's good to have someone to lean on.

21)What now you wish for?
♥ complete my diploma, get a part-time job, rent a room and mend my broken heart.

22)If you have bf/gf now.. Do you really love thm?
♥ when I get into a relationship, I'm serious about them.. and dont say that my past r/s is for the sake of getting into one, it's not.

2008-05-02T00:24:00.002+08:00

Love Survey:
You must answer every question TRUTHFULLY!!

[01] Are you currently in a relationship?
- I dunno am I considered ''IN'' a relationship or not.

[02] Have you ever been given a rose..
- yeah.

[03] What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
- I dont know..

[04 ] There's no number 4 question..
- =="

[05] Do you believe that everyone has a soul mate ?
- yeah. each of us have one, whether we're lucky to meet him/her is up to our destiny.

[06] What's your current problem?
- too many to name it already. relationship, family, money, education, friends, perception.

[07] Have you ever had your heart broken?
- I broken too many hearts, karma is back.

[08] Your thoughts of online or long distance relationships?
- I believe in online relationship, so is long distance relationship.. girls, learn this, nvr put your heart too much into a relationship, you'll be the one who will get hurt in the end.

[09] Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?
- yes.. but I try hard not to cross the bounderies..

[10] The person your with right now, do you want to spend your life with?
- yes. but, it's difficult to be with him..

[11] How many kids do you want to have?
- lols.. can I say none? I'm not ready for kids yet but I wanna give birth earlier.. hahas

[12] What is/are & your favorite colors?
- Black Black Black, Red, Gold.

[13] Who are your celebrity crush?
- Y celebrity? I want to choose army guys. =D

[14] Do you believe you truly only love once??
- nope. love can happen anywhere.. even when u least expected.

[15] Imagine you're 79 & your spouse just died, would you get re-married?
- If I found a wonderful sex partner who understands me and accepts me as who I am, I would. =)

[16] At what age did you start noticing the opposite sex?
- hmm, kindergarten? I had a best guy friend and I really like to see him..

[17] What song do u want to be played at your wedding?
- hahas.. wedding, I'm not going to think that far, no point..

[18 ] Do you like anyone?
- hell yeah.

2008-04-29T08:49:00.002+08:00

tired.

irritated by this auntie. in the mrt, the place she stand is not here not there.. gt space dont want move in, no space wan squeeze in.. wtf. then cause the mrt is shaky.. I understand la, u need to grab hold of something else you'll fall ma, then she go put her hands against the window, elbow so fucking damn near my b00bs la.. ==" throughout the journey was hoping there was no majorrrr jerk else, I gurantee u I'm so gonna slap her.. read newspaper in the damn fking 8am crowded mrt smmore.. hey, wake up la dey.. so squeezy, u tink I want to ''spare'' u the space to read newspaper meh! knn.

2008-04-27T23:07:00.002+08:00

super super damn tired..

rarely have time to properly rest and rot OTOT..

haix.. what to do, everything's breaking down.. and I gotta stand up and be strong.. I'm just afraid that one day, I might breakdown again, or I'm surpressing my breakdown motion, so not to get people worry abt me.. everyone has their up n down time, I will share my up times with you, but dont expect me to share my downtime with you, cause I hate people to see that I'm weak.. I hate people to see me in tears..

I wanna go out to the working society, I hate studying though it's a privillage to be able to study till this age.. I want to work towards my dream.. doing something I like and will never regret.. I know I dont have the money to do so, but I will try.. and I hope that people who love me, could support me of my dreams instead of asking me to do something I dislike..

so sick n tired of people saying things.. I've changed, you can see it.. stop asking me to change and get back to the normal me cause nothing will get me back to my usual self.. so what if I'm more fashion consious now? so what If I want to attract attention from the opposite sex? so what if I want to hangout with my friends? so what?

my harddrive spoilt, tio virus like nobody's business, when want to transfer to harddisk, harddisk crash.. wtf la.. now using another harddrive to run this laptop.. haix.. cause papa so much trouble..

list of things I want to and HAVE TO buy:
- laptop ( MACBOOKPRO preferably )
- harddisk
- thumbdrive ( 8GB )
- more JEANS plz!
- versitile tops ( I know it gonna cost a bomb, but multitasking things are always my fav. )
- IPHONE!!!
- shoes that can bring me day to night, sweet to punk, glam to rock. =) work hard designers!
- rings and more rings! ( quirky ones will be spotted RIGHT AWAY~! )
- bags bags and bags! ( again, quirky bags are my target now xD )
- sushi~! more and more sushi!
- FANCL facial cleansing oil !!
- LEARN BELLY DANCING until my belly says, STOP DANCING!
- I want to go skiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing~~~~!
- and backpacking!

=)

I want to sing and dance. love clubs alot! MINUS the fking cigaratte smokes.. and people, plzzzzz plzzzzz buy expensive cig, cause your cheapo cig is fking killing the air scent..

2008-04-24T10:28:00.003+08:00

what's there to write when ther's no one to read?

lol

2008-04-18T15:24:00.002+08:00

whatever happens Karen, you have friends that you can turn to.. and you have best friends that will support you no matter what..

and I thank them.. for their love for me, has never died down..

guys are bastards..

and I'm afraid of relationships..

phorbia of marriage..

and I always believe that one day, your husband will cheat on you, have a mistress, take away your savings, and leave you for good..

I can mutually trust people, but I dont trust you completely..

I'm sorry, that's just me.

2008-04-15T11:28:00.003+08:00

2008-04-01T10:32:00.002+08:00

1. Have you ever called a person useless?
~~\ I dunno \~~

2. What object in your room is really important to you?
~~\ my Blanket! I cant slp with it \~~

3. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
~~\ I thought so, but my face tells awhole loads of things \~~

4. Do you smile a lot?
~~\ you bet! people thought I'm weird thou \~~

5. Would you kiss an ugly person for $10,000?
~~\ kisses are signatures of love.. can love be measured? \~~

6. Where were you today?
~~\ Hotel, just came to work.. and I'm blogging. =) \~~

7. What kind of sense of humor do you have?
~~\ Lamer kind? \~~

8. Do you usually tell people when they hurt your feelings.
~~\ depends on my mood.. usually I will just tell them, sometimes I just forget it \~~

9. Do your initials spell out a word?
~~\ I dont give a damn \~~

10. When is the last time you talked to an ex?
~~\ kaypoh \~~

11. How often do you give high fives?
~~\ when I find people of similarities.. \~~

12. If you had to delete one person off your top friends list, who would it be?
~~\ is there such thing as top friends list? you must be kidding me \~~

13. Is your shirt new?
~~\ yeah.. it's ''new'' \~~

14. Where is the last place you went out to eat?
~~\ yesterday Golden Hans buffet lunch I forgotten what I ate for dinner thou \~~

15. Have you bought any clothing items in the past week?
~~\ nope \~~

16. Do you live near your ex?
~~\ I hope not \~~

17. If you could have anything right now, what would it be?
~~\ LAKSA LAKSA LAKSA LAKSA LAKSA \~~

18. Has your house ever been TPd?
~~\ what the hell is tpd? \~~

19. Did you sing in the shower today?
~~\ I bath in ZERO degree water this MORNING what makes you think I will sing? \~~

2008-03-03T09:32:00.002+08:00

yo~

update again. =D

I can blog, but cant view blog.. sian~

the weekends we always have loads of fun.. this weekend, Saturday, we went skiing.. =D dont be jealous of me, I pay to come here while the rest of you guys are earning $$$ back in singapore.. fair and square right?

I hired a coach to teach me personally how to ski PROPERLY.. =D well I'm very very damn glad that I spent 120yuan for it.. and I'm proud that I'm a FAST learner! within one hour I can stop, slow down, move left and right.. woohoo~! my fren took 2hours thou.. but most of them dint hire a coach, they juz skii for fun.. =)

it was really damn fun.. the falling part was abit paiseh.. haha, it's not pain thou the ice was abit hard tt time.. I was hoping that I could skii smmore, but there's very little time left and they are closing the mountain on 3rd march.. cuz ice is melting soon.. aww~ so sad nia..

my new found friend, Eugene, told me that Singapore's snow city der slope for us to ski is DAMN small.. =.= GG la~ seriously damn fun.. xD but, warning! learn skiing if you have to courage to do so, otherwise, youl'll be wasting your money and time learning.. =D

my new found love sport.. SKIING!! haix~ skiing is VERY expensive.. rent boots, skiboards and skipoles alreadi cost u much.. haven count the enterance fee? ==

okok~ let's go to Sunday..

Sunday, I woke up damn late.. 12plus.. haha! then I joined my other group of friends to go shopping.. =D from there, I know some EEE guys.. I cant really remember their names, rather we were not introduced formally, they know my name but I dont know their names.. =\ they were rather gentleman thou, abit loud when comes to talking and laughing.. we ate lunch at the shopping center and their system is unique.. you have to rmb ur order, pay it at a cashier counter before getting that slip of paper back to the stall that you want to order.. weird right? and the food is prolly nice.. bubblemilk tea has syrups in it.. somehow it reminds me of Malaysia.. haha! we went on to play the indoor theme park.. it's really very big and nice.. and there's a lover's island there.. wish dear was with me.. we dint went up thou... hahas.. walkwalk around.. the cinema here, one ticket is 50yuan.. which is 10singDollars... == not cheap larh.. considering the fact that all movies will be in mandrian, we walk out.. haha! my fren wanted to help me win a soft toy.. WHICH IS SO DAMN CUTE! but we went to play first and then come back for it, BUT WE ALL FORGOTTEN! T_T saded.. so cute tt toy.. =(

we went on a rollercoaster ride, not fun at all. went on to the pirate ship, exciting. tt's all. nth much. lols.. they have alot cute stuff there.. yeah.. then we went down to shop, but everything instore was DAMN EXPENSIVE! == so we went carrefour.. and bought quite alot of grosseries.. hahas.. shoping with them was fun.. better than going with my own normal clique.. dont know y but they are more, matured I guess? my clique more towards like to play type.. well, this new known fren always make sure that the gurls dont get lost and we walk infront of them.. tt's weird right? like the feeling of being protected. xD ahem~! where as my clique, they dont care u if u dont follow them, lost or not is ur prob.. so smtimes, we juz get seperated cause too many people already and they walk off.. == pekchek.

we went back and ate dinner.. food was damn nice.. I ate alot! =X cause, not many people will be eating at the hotel muahaaha! after awhile, played a few games sit down awhile.. nth much thou... boring~~ went down to the guy's room to watch movie.. ^^ Game Plan.. nice~ hahas.. I'm the last gurl survivor! woohoo~! 4am we slp ytd.. 8am we woke up.. == feeling so tired now..

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one of our friend was admitted to hospital, he has an eye infection, he's recovering soon.. let's all hope that his condition will improve over the few weeks.. he will be discharge today.. =)

2008-02-27T14:38:00.002+08:00

wow.. hi all.. I'm now at my workplace, slacking.. =) can blog lerh.. lols.. at hotel cant even login blogger neh.. but too bad, here still cant view .blogspot.com.. like maumau-is-kAren-.blogspot.com oso cant.. kexi.. livejournals oso cant.. haix.. now my finger damn cold la.. type until pain loh.. the weather ehre been below ZERO all the time.. hahas.. fun at first, sian later.. everytime go out nid to be fully prepared before braving the cold air plus the strong wind. burrrr.. anyway, I'm fine here.. lols.. aiyah.. anything juz email me loh.. =D

anyway, saw this across the net

DEDICATED TO ALL THE PEOPLE OUT THERE..

How to Make a Woman Happy

It's not difficult to make a woman happy. A man only needs to be:

1. a friend
2 a companion
3. a lover
4. a brother
5. a father
6. a master
7. a chef
8. an electrician
9. a carpenter
10. a plumber
11. a mechanic
12. a decorator
13. a stylist
14. a sexologist
15. a gynaecologist
16. a psychologist
17. a pest exterminator
18. a psychiatrist
19. a healer
20. a good listener
21. an organizer
22. a good father
23. very clean
24. sympathetic
25. athletic
26. warm
27. attentive
28. gallant
29. intelligent
30. funny
31. creative
32. tender
33. strong
34. understanding
35. tolerant
36. prudent
37. ambitious
38. capable
39. courageous
40. determined!
41. true
42. dependable
43. passionate
44. compassionate

WITHOUT FORGETTING TO:

45. give her compliments regularly
46. love shopping
47. be honest
48. be very rich
49. not stress her out
50. not look at other girls

AND AT THE SAME TIME, YOU MUST ALSO:

51. give her lots of attention, but expect little yourself
52.. give her lots of space, never worrying about where she goes

IT IS VERY IMPORTANT:

. Never to forget:
* birthdays
* anniversaries
* arrangements she makes

Not rocket science, eh????

HOW TO MAKE A MAN HAPPY

1. Show up naked
2. Bring food

=D

2008-02-14T03:13:00.002+08:00

in super bad mood now..
grrr.. cant find anyone to talk to oso..

==

fker cb..

damn pekchek..

grrr... nbcb

I would really love to duplicate rather multicate myself..

argh. when I'm gone. you guys would be DAMN FKING HAPPY!

knn.

and..... feel utterly sad deep inside..
who could understnad how I feel when you're not me?

thanks tomato dar.. ^^ tink onli you care abt me most ler.. other guys can juz fk off la..

to: EmoDan : fk off can? I gt bf dey. and I love him v v v v much. get it?
to: QiQi : cb kia. nth to say to u.
to: Viper baba : dont nag me ler larh.. grrr...!!
to: Hayai : let's play ballroom agn. =D
to: Tomato : dar!! (love) ^^ bu she der ni lerh.. =(

to: Jeff Dear : wish I could spend more time wid u.. really miss u deeply. =(

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY !

roses. chocolates. bears. balloon! ^^

all I cant get. =(

2008-02-01T01:38:00.000+08:00

some quizzzzzzzzzzz::

[One] Who was your last phone call with?
\\ CheeMing \\

[Two] Where was your default picture taken?
\\ None \\

[Three]What's your second name?
\\ Siew?? or Mun?? \\

[Four]When is your birthday?
\\ 06 Jan 1989 \\

[Five] Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?
\\ duh~ bf \\

[Six]What is your current mood?
\\ empty \\

[Eight] What color shirt are you wearing?
\\ Darkblue \\

[Nine] Do you love your mom as much as you love your dad?
\\ I love my mom more. but I need daddy~ \\

[Eleven] Do you have a crazy side?
\\ yeah u bet. \\

[Twelve] Ever had a near death experience?
\\ considering getting bumped into the wall in a car. YES. \\

[Thirteen] Something you do a lot? ~
\\ Audition. Audition. Audition. spending money. \\

[Fourteen]Angry at anyone?
\\ yeah. myself.\\

[Fifteen] Fav . month ?
\\ used to have. currently, none. \\

[Sixteen] Name someone with the same birthday as you?
\\ i dont like to see my twin \\

[Seventeen]When was the last time you cried?
\\ yesterday \\

[Eighteen] When was the last time you went to the doctor?
\\ 28th. MON. juz a jab. nth much. \\

[Nineteen] If you could have one super power what would it be?
\\ power to change ppl's thinking. \\

[Twenty] What's the first thing you notice about the opposite gender?
\\ first. HAIR. second. ARM. third. BUTT. \\

[Twenty-one] What do you usually order from Starbucks?
\\ starbucks? I take coffee bean. srys. \\

[Twenty-two] Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
\\ A poor artist trying to carve out a career out of smthing she likes to do.. and probably. married. XD I want to marry young. \\

[Twenty-three] Who are you missing?
\\ the person I'm missing.. is not with me right now.. \\

[Twenty-four] Favorite TV show?
\\ I watch everything. frm B grade movies to serial dramas. =D dont ask me abt the tittle thou. i WONT rmb. \\

[Twenty-five] Do you still watch kiddy movies?
\\ yeah. y not? THRE'S A KID IN ME! \\

[Twenty-six] What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
\\ nth. nth. nth. \\

[Twenty -eight]Whats your favorite smell?
\\ Still by JLo -- first and last perfume I ever loved \\

[Twenty-nine] Describe your life in one word.
\\ fked up \\

[Thirty] Have you ever kissed in the rain?
\\ u bet. \\

[Thirty-one] Ever kissed on the beach?
\\ darn yes. and It was damn romantic. minus the ppl ard. \\

[Thirty-two]What are you thinking about right now?
\\ I'm determine to do it MY way.. and it's gonna hurt DAMN LOADS OF PPL. \\

[Thirty-three] What should you be doing?
\\ studying. getting betta grades. get into a local Uni. get a job.. but, I'm a failure. dun expect those frm me. I'll juz disappoint u. \\

[Thirty-four] Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
\\ Eugene Wong Loh Chee \\

[Thirty-five] What are you currently listening to?
\\ the clock ticking in the main hall. NTH \\

[Thirty-six] Do you like working in the yard?
\\ I have a love hate rs with nature. =D \\

[Thirty-seven] Plans for the evening?
\\speding time wid my dear bf. I missed him so much \\

[Thirty-eight] Would you ever like to skydive?
\\ hell yes. \\

[Thirty-nine] What is your natural hair color?
\\ black. but I like to make it JET black. MOM~ more soup plz~ \\

[Forty] Who was the last person to make you smile?
\\ Leewah + CheeMing + Yanwen = smile. \\

2008-01-27T22:54:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG~!!!

I LUURRRVVVEEEE THIS PHONE TO BITS!!

GOSH~!

PRICE : $200~+++

ORIGIN : MADE IN CHINA (I DONT CARE IT'S MADE IN CHINA! IT'S HELLO KITTY!)

SIMPLY AWWEEEE-SOMEEEEE!! XD

GOTTA GET MY HANDS ON THIS ONE!

==" GREAT!

IT'S WRIITEN THERE...

''MAY NOT WORK IN NEWER 3G SIM CARD. ''

DARN!

WHAT SHLD I DO??!!

ARGHH!

T________________T

MY FAV PHONE~~ GONE~~

2008-01-24T22:11:00.000+08:00

yoz!

kinda happy with my life IF ONLY I DONT HAVE TO STUDY.. and doing the things I LOVE.. like making jewelleries and accessories.. part of making it is NOT to make money.. but to share my LOVE and PASSION for jewelleries to others.. and I really love my customers very much.. Some even make a point to intorduce my blogshop to her friends.. and I'm really glad.. =D thanks so much gurls! and thanks to all who have suported me all these while.. =) thou I might not have a LARGE capital.. but I'm trying my best to sustain this shop.. pretty harsh blow on my account.. and considering now that I'm gonna open another blogshop selling teeshirt.. hahas.. my account practically dried.. =\ yeah.. I branched out because I LOVE TEE SHIRTS damn damn loads! and PLZ.. dun comment on my love for tees.. they are YES. casual. and I'm pretty sure there are loads who are like me!. =D

there's one point where I asked myself.. should I continue my shop since it has drained me of my studies, my money and time.. that I could put it to betta use.. my ans will still be a YES. DAMN FKING YES. whether you guys support me or not, I wont regret it.. because it has ALWAYS been my dream to open a shop.. and I've made it. and I'm not giving up! even if I'll die of hunger, I will still continue doing this..

ok la.. too much of emotions up there.. hahas..

abt audi.. everytime when exam time comes, I'll juz get addicted back to Audition.. this juz sucks.. I find it so hard to concerntrate.. =\ mayb because I'm not interested in it.. so, I cant bring myself doing something I dont like.. bah~ i'm juz terrible.

anyway, was actually finding audi bf.. cuz, it's getting kinda bored inside too.. my ''mia'' audi bf doesnt even care abt me.. so, ahh! find another one.. and.. it's juz happen that I found one right infront of me.. hahas.. hmm, ok la.. i admit tt I do flirt alot.. hahas.. considering how many audi bfs I have.. =P but, none of them could last long.. so, I'm kinda giving up alreadi.. tired of changing audi bfs.. until QiQi came.. hahas.. we've known each other for kinda long.. thou I have shown interest of hinting for couple.. but he doesnt seem to making any move.. ''suan ler'' i thought.. but how would I guessed.. few couples of days ago, we coupled.. and it has nvr been so gd.. yeah.. hopefully this time, he could last longer than the rest.. and thanks to all my frenz who have been giving us blessing.. or rather HIM blessing.. for my req for my couple is 10 hearts, 8keys, any song speed. hahas. actually was looking for a 8k-lover cuz I'm a 8k-lover myself! but too bad, he's not a fan of 8k.. but like my caslyn mei said, '' see how hard he struggles to prove to u tt he really wans this '' hahaa! cuz we've tried and tried for umpteen times but still failed.. he could have juz give up and find another gurl.. haha! thanks dude.. for trying so hard.. =X

things been going pretty ok i say.. I told my REAL boyfriend abt my audi bf.. yeaps.. some may say I'm stupid or wad, but I feel that some things do need to come clean with it.. and yes. FINALLY, he's jealous of him. and I'm so glad. when those prev audi bfs, he doesnt seems to be jealous at all.. hahas..

yeah.. and me n my audi bf meet.. btw, his name is QiQi. =D we meet as a grp.. not me n him alone.. yeah. we meet with another of my audi fren, Benjamin. benben is wad we call him. XD me n QiQi meet at tiongbahru mrt stn at first, hahas! when we saw each other, instantly we know who are we. LOLs! ahh.. dont worry dear, he's SHORT. =X keke.. but he has all of the charastristic that I like.. =D but he's BENG ==" a beng that doesnt admit he's beng. LOL! yeah. so we took a bus to Great World City. hahas. which QiQi call them, a waste of space. lols.. we waited for benben for damn fking long.. ==" me n QiQi practically walked the whole mall alreadi, he still asked us to wait for him for 10more mins.. ahhh! crazy~! =="!! from 2pm till 3plus we wait for him! kns. ==" I damn hungry la~ grr nvm, we moved to Kenny Rogers, erm, I forgotten how to order alreadi.. ahahs. so me n benben juz follow wadever QiQi order for us.. hahas. benben n me shyshy eat loh.. den he indulge himself with his fav dunno wad cheese macroni.. ==" wei~ we nid to eat oso loh.. nth much actually.. din really eat much oso.. dun understand how u eat.. ==" nxt time go some place gt staple food plz~ XD but i agree the ambience was nice~ ^^ BENBEN!! PAY BACK QIQI 10 DOLLARS FOR THE LUNCH! HE AINT A BANK DUDE~!! =X after that, me n QiQi bougth few things which worth $163 of product.. hahas.. $$ gone agn~ we went back to tiongbahru and walk there for awhile.. ==" kns. promise me alreadi dun smoke, he still wan go smoke sial~! grrr.. damn fking smelly lah.. !!! grrr! in the end, he cant tahan liaoz.. we went to mrt and parted there.. hahas.. damn tired.. at night, we 3 meet in audi.. hahas! it feels kinda weird to play with them.. =\ hahas..

to Viper baba~ STOP NAGGING AT ME! D=

and, QiQi say i cheapo gurl.. ==" cuz everything oso ppl get for me der.. grrr~! cuz my dens is my fren help me get till 1million.. and I spend it~ XD and my shoe, which is cash, oso not mine cash.. hahas! =X wee~! my fren wan sponsor me cash items.. lols.. but QiQi seems kinda angry and asked her not to buy for me.. my fren's a HER btw. =) yeah.. ==" he tink he open bank ah.. ==" spend so much on a 3d character.. i know la~ nice ma~ but still, in the end, you're the one speding ur money away~ unneccessarrillyyyyyyy~!

to -tof-daboi : I dieDie oso wont tell u my result. =Pbleah~! wait longlong ah!
to DD_EmOx3BIBI : go die lah
to DAVS : I'm IN CHINA when ur bday comes dude~! shall we celebrate earlier? =D
to ahma : thanks for today. my leg v suan liaoz. x.x hahas!
to Jeffrey dear~ I LOVE YOU~! ^^

current favs song :
Timbaland(feat One Republic) - Apologise
Beyonce - Irreplaceable
Nelly Furtado - Say It Right
Cassie - Me&U
Sean Paul - Temperature
The All-American Rejects - It Ends Tonight
Nelly Furtado - ManEater

current favs color :
+ midnight blue + BLACK + WHITE + RAINBOW +

current favs food :
CHINESE NEW YEAR GOODIES~~~~~~~~~

current favs drink :
GREEN TEA~~!

current hated food :
CHOCOLATES! CHOCOLATES! CHOCOLATES! CHOCOLATES!

current hated drink :
MILK COFFEE! MILK COFFEE! MILK COFFEE! MILK COFFEE!

current mood :
IRRITATED

current sign :
=="

2008-01-07T11:56:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to myself!
06.01.2008

and, my parents rank first for the most expensive gift.
second, my sister
follow closely, leewah
and Hweehwee
and Jeffrey. ^^

well, gotta say, many misunderstanding happen on or for my bday.. haix.. i went home late night onli to reaslise tt my mom dint cook for me.. cuz she heard tt i'm saying i'm nt eating home.. @@" nvm larh.. pass liaoz jiu pass liaoz.. hope this new yr aint tt bad for me..

juz received another call from my supplier.. argh.. I dont have enough cash.. hope we can work out something.. I'll b selling tees.. ger? guy tees? yeaps. no couple tee though.. to import couple tee in is really not worth it.. haha..

and
I'll
be
going
to
China
Changchun
from
18/2
for
2mths

so dont say I nvr inform u guys! ^^
and most probably I dont tink shopping there is a gd option. hahas! will buy things back depending on my mood larh. =P

Abt audi, something I want to share yet it's rather private.. ahh~ I juz felt very angry at my fren.. when he asked me to do something which I dont want to.. how can he say something like tt.. if u dont know how much we've been through and how much sacrifices I've made. shut the fuck up dude.

on the bright side, I found a v gd didi and meimei.. lols.. damn fking crappy my mei.. same like caslin mei. mm, wonder how she's doing..

and GRATS to EMO-MARO with his wife! =D

and my audi skills get suckier and suckier.. argh! darn!

2008-01-05T05:00:00.000+08:00

less than a month to my BIRTHDAY! =D
wishlist wishlist wishlist! =X

~~1. Charles & Keith handbag (OutOfStock in Bugis n Jp) [Colour: Midnight Blue] $ 43~~~

2. PSP Slim (everything included! =X) [Colour: Ice Silver] $400~

~~3. TheFaceShop nailpolish [Colour: Midnight Blue] $3~?~~

~~4. Esprit Tee [Colour: Black, ~~Red, Blue,~~ ] $20 -- THANKS dear! =P~~

5. Colour Pants / Skinnies (muz b in high quality for both colour and material) [Colour: ElectricBlue, WashedDenim, BlackBlack agn! XP] $30~

~~6. Diesel Plain Key Necklace [Colour: Gold tone] $20~?~~

7. New set of Jewellery Pliers (BeadSmith Brand) [Colour: with BlackHandleGrip] $10~?

8. METAL Badge Maker Machine + METAL badge holder (Dont want plastic kind) [Colour: any Colour will do] $~? dunno. cant find.

2007-12-16T01:58:00.001+08:00

ahh~ I'm going off for a holiday. I'm not dead yet. dun worry. but I'll be dead as soon as I touch back Sg. XD buaii~

2007-12-14T00:54:00.001+08:00

ahh.. been such a tiring week.. no engery no mood to go sch oso.. =\ but still, cant miss lesson.. else, LOLS! yeah.. I've been MIA-ing from msn for quite sometime.. lols.. some know y.. want to contact me juz sms me.. or wait for me to online larh. ^^ keke.. uhm, been focusing alot on the development of my business.. will be setting up another blogshop.. selling tees cater to males only.. wun do any female tee unless there's order for it.. =D been sourcing out for possible suppliers.. currently having 3 now.. I'm gonna have a survey regarding my blogshop matter.. so, my frenz, plzplzplz help me do it! THANKS! =D and, most probably, I could bring in NewUrbanMale look-a-like tees in at a cheaper price.. Any one interested in Real Authentic Adidas / Nike (dunno which one available) dry fit tee? Could get it at a damn cheap price. parellel import so Dun Worry.. It IS AUTHENTIC! muz check with my supplier if there is any stock left... btw, if there's no delay in my plans.. shop will be setting up pretty soon, juz that cant think of a suitable name for it.. any suggestion? XD yeah.. and stocks all will b arriving ard..... late january.. yeaps.. My capital this time is so much damn higher than my prev shop. erk! I nid find a business partner! lols.. but, hard to find one since none of my frenz are interested.. or they alreadi have their own business partner.. haha. =\ sianz.

I'M SICK! sorethroat. damn! drink, eat, swallow oso DAMN fking pain nia! grr... regret eating the chocolates! sharlyn!!! ur fault larh! =.= !! now damn pain nia.. it's bleeding inside. knn. grr.. dun wan eat chocolates lerh larh!

2007-12-07T00:19:00.000+08:00

ahh.. finally, I get to open my own stall at a flea market.. lols.. super alot more things to do than I expected.. too bad.. I prepare late.. I prepare less.. and I'm damn fking nervous.. darn! all my prices jumble up nia.. eeks! hope I dint scare away too many customers.. haha.. anyway.. there's alot thing tt I've learnt from it.. heng the rental still cheap.. LOL.. so, here, I will write what I've learnt..

1. Price your Items.
2. Rmb ur price.
3. Abolish make your own necklace UNLESS it's below 10$. =.=
4. Put lesser things on the table. too cluttered. =.=
5. have LOADS of chair to put ur stuff ard
6. MAKE CONNECTIONS with ppl ard u.. (haha! stole jason's crowd! =X)
7. Be more Pushy! and Intro offers you have for them!
8. wear a BIG SMILE on ur face. (I wasnt. =.= so dead darn irritated n tired.)
9. Do, Design, Create new necklaces on the SPOT! rmb to price them IMMEDIATELY! (rawr!)
10. Print Banners and Logos and Shop Name!
11. Bring extra change! coins n smaller notes! (ppl do pay with $50 dollar)
12. have NameCards! I onli have thankyou card (haha! =X)
13. join a Flea Market ONLY if you are confident of your target market =.=
14. Student usually go for SMALL, DAINTY stuff.
15. Students will buy stuff BELOW $10.
16. make CUTE n QUIRKY stuff. MASS MARKET THEM IF U NEED. cuz students rarely go for one-piece stuff. too Pricey for their wallet.
17. DONT BE NERVOUS!
18. bargain with them if you like them! (no pt bargaining to a bytch u dun like.. BLEAH!)
19. have point light instead of directional light! jewelleries onli shine betta (if u know wad I mean.)
20. have MORE necklace stands! n definately earring stands. =\

ok. I guess tt's all.. haha.. I'm getting fatter with this flea market.. all I do was eat drink eat eat eat. XD

Old Chang Kee Curry Puff x2 (breakfast)
Nuggets (snack)
Fried Fish Slice with noodles (lunch)
Various Donuts (snack)
Cincao (thirsty!)
Curry Puff (snack agn)
Hashbrown (super snack agn!)
mixed rice (dinner)
mango Cheese frm aust (snack!)
pucca (snack agn!)
SUPER FULL alreadi ~~ x.x

DEFINATELY. SERIOUSLY. SUPER. DARN. FUCKING. TIRED.
the moment I close my eyes.. I can juz slp!

2007-11-26T11:00:00.000+08:00

1. last beverage:
+ ginseng tea. =D

2. last phone call:
+ Niel

3 . last cd played:
+ CD?

4. last time you cried:
+ like last 3days ago?

5. last text message to:
+ Jason

1. dated someone twice?
+ no

2. kissed someone & regretted it?
+ nvr

3 . lost someone special?
+ i hope not

4. been depressed?
+ m I depressed?

5. been drunk and threw up?
+ no. the feeling is horrible..

LIST FIVE FAVORITE COLORS
+ BLACK red BLACK midnightblue BLACK

THIS MONTH HAVE YOU.

1. Made a new friend?
+ yes.

2 . Laughed until you cried?
+ yah.

3. Met someone who changed your life?
+ not realy. din change but inspired me.

4. Found someone who was your true friend?
+ true fren wont pangseh u.. and so far, I onli meet ONE.

5. Is there something you want to tell someone?
+ yes. I HATE U BYTCH

6. How many kids do you want to have?
+ can I dont have any? =D cant den mayb juz 2.

7. Do you have any pets?
+ no. I'm nt an animal lover. no thanks anyway.

8. Do you wanna change your name?
+ yes and no. Ppl like my name which I dun like.

9.What did you do yesterday?
+ nth much except playing no life game like Audition and chatting..

10 . Last time You had pizza?
+ somewhere ard last week? dun rmb.

11 . What time did you wake up today?
+ 8am

12 . What were you doing at 10:30pm?
+ ytd night? still playing Audition I guess?

1 3. Name something you CANNOT wait for:
+ have xxx. HAHA! hormones man! HORMONES~!

14. Last time you saw your father:
+ last night b4 I slp? =D

15. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?
+ hmm, my lazyness OLD HABITS DIE HARD dude~

16. What are you listening to right now?
+ NDP song. my home. haha. fking assignment la. =="

17. Have you ever say goodbye forever to the one u loved?
+ no. most probably I'm nt that strong to hang on.. someone have to slap me and tell me to move on.

18 . Who's getting on your nerves right now?
+ I'm isolationg myself. =D less talk more work MORE PLAY XP

19. Would u consider yourself as a player in terms of relationship?
+ hmm, my bf knows I'm a flirt. hahas.

20. Have you seen anyone naked in the past few week?
+ yes. myself. =D

2007-11-22T20:16:00.000+08:00

Assignment datelines are drawing near.. and I'm yet near completion of any one of them.. I dont know where shld I go now.. was planning to change course.. it will be equalivelent to going back to yr1.. I wun mind actually.. if I'm really doing what I like.. but, since I'm alreadi in yr2(haha.. davs.. *hinthint*), almost everyone say that I shld continue on.. but was thinking.. I really cannot do this anymore.. argh..

adding to the fuel, is our relationship problem.. ok la.. there's been misunderstanding between us.. partly was my fault for nt being understanding enough.. sometimes I feel so hurt by his words.. I juz cant talk to him anymore.. cant help it.. I miss him so much..

meeting and talking back with leewah really made me feel betta thou.. but, now, everyone's busy with assignments and exams.. I dont want to 'fan' her with this since she also has her set of problems.. which, I tink worst than mine.. (ahh~ i'm a weakling!)

the other day, met up with Johnson agn.. thanks dude~ hahas.. nt for him, I wun b eating my lunch agn.. ahh.. lately no appetite to eat.. no hunger pangs, no tummy growling and I cant even feel if I'm eating or not.. @@ have alot of sleepless nights.. even if i slpt enough.. I would still feel very tired.. every now and then, I'll doze off if I dont do something to keep myself awake..

I know my plans for future arent as strong or as amiable as you guys.. but, cant a sch dropout be as successful as the rest? I know 18 is too young for anything.. but I really AM sailling to no where.. I just want to do my business seriously.. this time I'm not joking.. it's been my childhood dream to setup a business of my own.. and yes, david william.. I did it.. =D my shop is still standing tall till this day, It will be and It shall be standing till the day u come and visit me.. =D

what I ask for now is support.. not lecture. not advice. not even suggestion.. when I need it, I'll know who to go.. no worries.. =)

and thanks Victor.. =) u juz made my day feel a lil betta..

++ topic ++
is it really inapproprieate for couples to hug and kiss in public?
I wasnt born into a hugs and kisses family.. but I believe that these harmless act could simply made your day happier.. my sis loves to hug me.. I hug my sis too.. all these juz make me go aww~ you're so sweet.. but, do this onli to ppl hum they allow AND comfortable to hug in public.. haha.. I love hugging my dear in public.. nt kissing thou since there's too many pair of eyes are watching us.. and I realise, most adults dont like teenagers to do that in public.. hello~ dont u do that when you're young? what excite most is the feeling I got when I'm going home by 6pm.. that's when my dad would b on the train as well.. so there would be higher chances of him seeing me with Jeff.. XD it's super exciting.. my heart races through out the whole journey back home.. haha! if he really caught us one day, haha.. i dont know what to say, mayb, yah.. we're still tgt.. and I love him.. haha! did i see a big tight slap on my face? XP

ahh.. back to topic.. tat day, I was directly standing infront of this couple.. both kip hugging and giggling like any other couple.. haha.. it juz made me feel jealous.. y my dear's nt with me.. =X budden at the other side, this auntie keep starring at them.. hey auntie! mind ur own bussiness can? so kaypoh for wad sial! and on another unlucky day when I dint meet dear, and there happens to have 3 couples surrounding me.. wahahaha! super green mosnter by then.. =\ I dont have him to support me when the mrt jerks.. I dont have him to talk to me during the ride.. I dont have him to touch when I'm feeling naughty.. I dont have him to stroke my hair.. I dont have him to open the pathway for me when I needed to alight.. I dont have him to hold my hands.. I dont have him to kiss me goodbye when I'm leaving.. aww~ I juz hate them..

2007-11-19T11:26:00.000+08:00

1. How are you feeling today?
~ starting to feel numb again. x.x

2. Where did you go yesterday?
~ leewah's coffeeshop. celebrate her bday. and Airport. Sis flying off.

3 .Who do you miss badly?
~ hu else but him?

4. What are you doing now?
~ typing ans-ing this thing cuz I'm lazy to do my assignment. XP

5. Honestly, are you a racist?
~ yeah. I tink I'm kinda.

6. Do you like rock/hardcore music?
~ neither?

7. What's your hobby?
~ refer to my frienster. =)

8. Where do you wanna go right now?
~ China, Thailand, Vietnam, HongKong to swipe all the great deals and.. u know.. XD

9. What do you see in life?
~ fragile. If u have experience near death before, U'll know.

10. If you could do anything that's without punishment,what would you do?
~ have xxx LOL! blame on my hormones! =X

11. Do you follow the law?
~ haha. wad ya think?

12. Are you considered as a happy person?
~ I onli look happy infront of my customers. =D put on a smile~

13. Where are your parents?
~ Mom's at home. Dad's overseas. =)

14. Do you smoke alot?
~ yeah! I take in but dun give out.

15. Do you drink alot?
~ rarely. I hate my tomato face and the giddy head afterwards. I have loads of things to do!!

16. What do you think about cats/kittens?
~ erm, graphic cats? cute. real life cats? monster!

17. Do you still watch Barney?
~ I'm nt a 8yrs old kid.

18. Anyone who has inspired you in anyways?
~ I dunno. I dun feel inspired now. x.x

19. Do you like being in school?
~ no. I hate studying! y muz we study! if we muz, STUDY SOMETHING WE LIKE!

20. Are you anti-social?
~ Lonely~ I'm so lonelyyyy.. I have nobody~~ All of my own~ ooooooowwwwoooooooo.. =P

21. Do you trust your friends easily?
~ I judge u before I tell u.

22. Ever betrayed the person you cared the most?
~ erm, Yes I guess?

23. What's on your mind right now?
~ I'm DOOOOOMMMMMM!!! FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL. (did i hear jeff's slap again?)

24. Rain, sun or windy?
~ RAIN RAIN go away~ come again another day~

25. Are you in love?
~ like duh~

26. What's your sister doing?
~ wad else? living her live la.

27. Ever been to a dog show?
~ no. I'm nt an animal lover i guess.

28. Do you eat pork?
~ yeappo!

29. Ever gotten Dengue Fever?
~ choy~ no.

30. If you can have 1 super power, what would it be?
~ duplicate myself. Or have time travelling machine. I'm too slow for this world.

31. Where do you study? And do you like it?
~ SP. hmm, not bad I can say.. but I prefer Nafa.

32. Anything that's bothering you right now?
~ duh~ SCH PROJECTS! ASSIGNMENTS! MY SHOP! (how come I dun bother abt my weight?) HAHA! CUZ I have no time for IT!

33. Ocean, sea, river or swimming pool?
~ river. I'm afraid of the fishes in the sea. but I love snorkling. x.x contradicting. haha!

34. Have you ever been to UK?
~ nope. U spondor 6 of us go, then I'll go for sure. (including spending money k? =P)

35. What surprises you?
~ his hug. CATS! insects! and DIAMOND!

36. What time is it now?
~ kepoh. 12:18pm.

37. Are you home-sick?
~ nope. I cant wait to go overseas!

38. Do you wanna go out and shop?
~ duh~ I wanna do it RIGHT NOW! where's my kaki shopping!

39. What do you hate the most?
~ ppl hu're late.(i'm nt like that in the past.) shy guys. grrrr!

40. Remember the past?
~ in case u duno. I have SSTM!! =D

2007-11-14T01:11:00.000+08:00

quick update i guess

monday - meet up with ex-maple-guildmate. yamasuto. Johnson. =) saw Tommy on the way.. chated awhile.. meet him.. lunch's on him. ^^v ok la.. we both hit it off quite well, juz tt.. like most guys, he dare not look at me.. haha.. after awhile okok ler.. another Mr Lamer and Crapper.. juz like Jeffrey dear.. =.= vomit blood! walkwalk awhile before Jeff dada come n join us.. haha.. Johnson was pretty quick with the intro.. hehes.. saves me the mafan of intro =X walkwalk awhile.. nth much to walk.. hahas.. he left earlier.. =.= dunno hu say wun ps der.. in the end oso zao.. =.= so, me n dada walkwalk awhile.. go home.. tiring.

tuesday - (TODAY) since morning no sch. went to meet dear. =) cant movie. so juz walk ard.. drink my coffee, eat his toast, drink his yuanyang n eat his eggs.. lols.. went to arcade to play daytona.. our first game gt one extra person joined in.. zzz.. nvm.. juz contd play.. nt v pro.. juz avg like us.. =) budden, they two banged each other.. the last lap, dear buaysong, go bang him back. make dear 3rd.. while the extraguy's car spin and i was cruising pass his car.. and DAM! i merely miss by the HEADLAMP of the car onli lo!! else i'll b number one! =.= heng he chicken out the 2nd round.. =) so onli me n dear fight.. I managed to do drifts here and there until the last part, i kinda wobbly.. (nervous) so I thought I will juz lose since dear's car nearer to finishing line.. so we both like.. kinda give up in the end, i banged into dear's car and he spin.. making me first headed by the car headlamp! wahahah!! =X walked to IMM.. talked alot with him.. =) walk nt long.. we took bus and train to sch.. =) pity dear din have his kiss since yesterday.. =X simply cuz too many ppl are watching ler.. hehe.. lunch was my karipap + hashbrown.. lol..

aft sch, went Concert (Linkin Park) wid dajie. ^^ whew~ so tiring to walk there.. nxt time shld juz flag down a taxi.. haha.. arrived there earlier.. the standing crowd was crazy.. we waited for 1hr for them to arrive.. haha.. impatient.. shld have known betta since they are the artist.. so, obvious they wun b punctual wad.. hahas.. but ppl are getting frustrated and impatient.. hahas.. o0 stated there no photography are allowed? thou most ppl respect this rule by juz snapping photos outta their camphones(like I do) but some ppl still bring those BIG BULK camera.. and FLASHSNAP at LP. aww~ I pity them, muz b blinded awhile.. haha! the place we sat was juz nice. thou abit too sidestage ler.. but I really love it.. ^^ LP was awesome.. no doubt their band performance.. and Hell yeah I can gurantee that they aint lipsync.. =) worth the money. but not worth the wait. n not worth the HEAT!!! Chester was crazy. He's jumping ard like mad monkehy and suddenly nxt song, was a sad sad song.. aww~ I love the new accustic song they made.. Just mike and chester.. =) sweet loves~ damn nice! wooots~ everyone was so upbeat by the 3rd song they sing.. haha.. their first song rarely move the crowd at all.. haha.. there's this 2guys sitting infront of us.. =.= damn anti-anthu.. =.= everyone was standing, shouting, screaming, singing, jumping and waving their hand like crazy and all they did was some standing, some waving, some singing. no shouting. no screaming. haha. weird. the angmohs beside them were kinda cool~ haha.. mayb we shld join them instead and have MORE fun! LOL!! the guy/gal (i dunno) sitting beside me oso stonning der.. haha! mayb I over enthu.. XD they played all the songs that I like.. ^^ and I gotto say, I HATE LP! the climax was really nailbitting lah! =.= heng in the end, they came up again and perform for us! darn! my voice almost break there when I'm practically singing/shouting accordingly.. haha! AWESOME! I'm half-deaf now.. LOL.. temporary lost my hearing at that time.. HAHAAHAAHHAHH!! now even if u talk to me.. I cannot actually hear u.. HAHA! aww~ so dead darn tired.. LP was "spraying" water to the audience.. haha.. den when they throw their stuff out to their fans.. It gives me an RUBBISH throwing impression.. =X sry bout tt but I really feel so.. XD nth much actually.. now since I've WENT to a concert.. BEEN to a concert.. it's been quite and experience to me.. goiing back home was bad.. no cabs wanna take flag in.. all wan to wait for oncall so they can charge callingfee + midnight surcharge.. zzz.. kns! I juz wan go home la.. damn tiring.. my eyes cant hold this anymore~ gtg bath already~ CANT GET THEIR AUTOGRAPH!!! CUZ WE NO BACKSTAGEPASS!!! haha! no more concerts for me! I dun wanna b half-deaf agn since I'm alreadi 3/4 deaf! zzz~!

2007-11-06T13:30:00.000+08:00

ytd, I was so damn happy cuz I meet Jeffrey. =D

ytd, I was sad cuz of wad he told me at night. =(

Audi : I was playing happily there.. hahas.. competing with this vietnamese guy(Tata) who's a chancer + chainer.. =.= I have to reach 600k of marks if I wan to win him.. ( perf x 9 perf 25 ) else, I'll juz lose to him.. it's so damn tiring man! but out of 20games, I won aveg 6games.. =) damn happy.. hahas! =X couple game was KNS! my fren (Cutest) wan play wid him.. cuz he pro mah.. =.= so I play wid other guys.. wakao! couple-8 ~100 oso, HE CHAINER! =.= but thanks to Cutest, hu gladly "noob".. =X me n my partner(Viper) won! XDD first time 5 hearts! after that 7 hearts! XDD den Cutest bu shuang.. wan 4k 140~ we lost.. cuz of me.. =.= Tata chainer and chancer agn.. =.= we played until 3am.. HE STILL HAVE THE ENERGY TO CONTINUE!! omg! cutest me n viper all so tired already.. =.= wee~ i tried all the moves I got! some sucky. some nice! but i tink those breakdance moves are roughly the same one la.. One move is left hand jump. another move is right hand jump. another move is jump from left.. pretty much nth special.. =\ bah~ waste my time trying it out..

dear login. come talk to me.. suddenly dear say, his maple gf is first class honour.. ok la.. i DID feel abit jealous.. so, I denied it at first.. then he went on and say, he wanted to try the new wedding system wid her.. WTF! wedding = buying of @cash.. which means he will spend on her.. I felt damn jealous from then on.. I dun wanna tell him that I'm nt in favour of it.. I dun wanna him to feel as if everything oso muz ask me.. I DONT WANT THAT! I dunno how to react.. jus ask him to do wad he wan lo.. den dear asked me, dear jealous ma? got not happy? dear not happy den I dun do ler.. haix.. I dunno wad to reply him.. I jus stood there in my game.. I dint even move for all the games afterwards.. Viper asked if I'm alright.. =\ gave him a weak smile..

after the game, I lie in bed so long.. I cant slp! cuz mymind kip repeating those words that he typed to me in audi.. yah... I cried the whole night.. I know it's silly.. But I just cant help it! I wanna msg dear to chat.. but I doubt he's still awake.. so I press the exit button and search through my phone book.. Davs? I dunno.. I doubt he'll reply me so fast.. Nic? Slp alreadi for sure.. Kor? he so stress, dun wanna disturb him.. Victor? Confirm slp alreadi oso.. Ahma? I dunno wan talk wad oso.. Ahger? same thing.. haix.. in the end, I stare at my phone.. close it.. and lay on my bed..

until I awoke this morning.. Erjie made me smile.. =D love my sista! but they're eating sushi today.. I cant tag along since I'm having lessons.. Erjie asked me agn. LOL.. jie, if I'm going out wid jeffrey, I sure bring him go with me.. =X but seriously, have lesson.. so now I'm starring at this computer, writting nonsense here.. =)

Dear say he's free today.. cuz he only got one lesson today.. so I thought.. YAY! can see him agn! den dear say, he wan stay and study.. =\ I understand lah.. dear's exam coming soon.. I shall b a gd gf and shant kacau him for the time being.. =)

TEST / EXAM: thanks to Jeffrey dear, Nicholas, Victor and Opai the bastrad for ur wishes.. I'm sure that I can pass this test! even if fail.. OSO NVM! =D

Lionel : owe me Badminton game
Opai : owe me coffee
Mooty(Dewei) : owe me prata and coffee
Nic(Ken) : owe me an ans!(cut where?) =X

2007-11-04T01:55:00.000+08:00

Si PETER!.. u tink u so gd har? =.= if u ask me go npc wid u.. lose ler den dun say so much la.. u tink u sibei pro har.. ok la.. i know i'm a burden to the team.. I alreadi try my best.. wad else u wan me to do.. if u dun wna me play, JUST TELL LA! fker knn cb my gf pro than u lo.. so shut ur arsehole mouth and play ur game.. zzz..

ytd Long tell tyson and bmx to tell me.. to go n die.. =.= today, he commented on my top, saying it's too revealing.. makes me look like a slut? hahas.. hu the hell are u Long? u're my ex.. u dun have power over wad i want to do.. and PLZ.. Any Of Your Friends.. plz plz leave me alone.. I'm neither looking for bf.. neither m I concerned with wad Long is doing now.. read my LIPs! I. AM. NOT. INTERESTED. TO. KNOW. ANYTHING. ABOUT. LONG.!

currently, I'm v excited abt my flea market store.. hahas.. juz cant stop thinking abt it! OMG! I even forgotten abt my test on monday.. XD ok. i hope i rmb to go to sch? hahas! fail or pass.. i dunno.. I seriously feel like quitting my course and join the business course.. juz that I hate accounting and stuff like that.. eeyah! dunno.. still thinking.. scared to tell my parents about it..

i have to go and exercise alreadi.. now, after naggings from my family and friends.. and of course, Jeffrey dear.. even nic agrees with them.. and davs oso! rawr! =.= *searching for other options of exercising*

EEYYAAA!! LIONEL! IF U'RE READING THIS.. WHEN ARE WE PLAYING BADMINTON?? SO LONG LER.. UNTIL NOW STILL HAVEN DECIDE!! U COME SP LA!! WE ALL GO NP BO HUA LA.. MAI STUBBORN COME SP LA..

::: I was informed that my tagboard sometimes doesnt work? sry for that but I doubt a tagboard would do any difference.. so I wun go and debug it.. =) thanks for the info! :::

2007-11-01T02:43:00.000+08:00

I love e-learning week. I juz spend my time "NOT" wisely.. hahas.. omg.. i juz LOVE my gems so much.. i wish it could be my CORE module.. haix.. tt day talked to Jovin abt changing course.. mayb changing to Jason's course.. mayb repeating this course but differ option.. dunno la.. i'm still thinking..

this few days I've been indulging myself in shopping.. hahas.. din ACTUALLY bought something everytime.. but juz enjoy the accompany of my sister.. ^^ so fun! mom actually weren't angry when we came home ard 11plus? wahahah! if dad were at home, he would b asking us to go home earlier.. hahaas! shop on saturday. shop on monday. shop on wed. wooohooo~ shopping on friday too? =X there goes my wallet~ *boom!*

davs been msging me.. tt's like.. so weird.. cuz usually he wun msg me unless it's something he wants to know.. hahas.. =X davs.. r u reading this? =X he commented that he dun see me in msn.. is tt so? but i thought i alwayz online? hahas.. chat wid u soon dude~ oh ya, u betta save money for the sushi!! i aint gonna pay for u! rawr! =X

and, yah.. dear know I'm gonna meet david ler.. lols.. did i sense a tinge of jealousy there? =P lols.. some of my frenz asked me.. y muz u tell everything to ur bf? hahas.. cuz i believe he has the right to know? y would I want to meet a guy behind his back and get him hurt afterwards? == I love him too much to hurt him. =D

Audi update.. hahas.. ok so. broken up with LONG.. but we're still frenz.. can sense he still wan me back.. but.. i wanna stay single lah.. having bf juz restrict the number of MALE frenz i can have. =x XDD does LONG n me got to do with anyone of u? stop asking me how is me n him. we've broken up. and that's it! my "son" still ask me y i keep him instead of deleting him.. hahas.. hmm, get to know more ppl from other country playing audi.. if u happen to FOUND me... (nick's maumau) =D take a look at my wonderful dens.. all thanks to my "gf" XD Mk invited me to play 8k bp.. lols.. i was thinking, why in the world would he wan me to play when i cant even move properly! onli to realise, his frenz are all pros.. x.x i'm juz like a slot filler hahas.. but it's good. i get dens at half the effort.. XD the "gf" so funny.. thou she's pro.. but i nvr wan add her ma.. den she say, maumau.. i add u ler.. play wid u sometime... OMG.. make me feel so noob inside.. =.= I cant stand pros.. they juz make me feel sucky.. but i AM sucky.. so, wadever~

and i get to play AUDITION PORTABLE! it's rather frustrating than fun.. hahas.. but i'm still learning with the keys and such.. =) thanks to my bf hu FOUND it for me! ^^ (cuz prev it was deleted and NIC deleted it from his com alreadi so practically, i dunno where he found it)

okies. i tink i shld get going. the later i slp. the more Jeff will nag. the more my sister will slp over my space. the more eyebags i'll have. the more sick i'll get.

to everyone's hu's sick out there~ HAPPY SICK DAY! ^^

is ytd halloween day? i get random wishes here n there.. trick of treats? =)

OOOOHH YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA..

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY NICHOLAS! =) finally u're OLD!

2007-10-30T23:33:00.000+08:00

1.A is for age: 18+

2.B is for your BIRTHDAY date?: Jan 6

3.C is for career right now: Student cum entrepreneur =)

4.D is for your dog's name?: none

5.E is for essential item you use everyday: tissue

6.F is for favorite TV show at the moment: so many!

7.G is for favorite game: Audition definately! ^^

8.H is for Home town: go friendster n check it for yourself. dun have? den too bad~

9.I is for instruments you play: ask my band members. =)

10.J is for favorite juice: ask the person hu alwayz treat me drink juice. =)

11.K is for whose butt you'd like to kick: someone I know..

12.L is for last place you at: bedroom!

13.M is for marriage: *ahem*

14.N is for your full name: K____ L__ S___ M__

15.O is for overnight hospital stays: i dint managed to book in earlier..

16.P is for people you were with today: Jeffrey (ONLY TODAY!)

17.Q is for quote: wadever~

18.R is for Biggest Regret: I have so many i forgotten which ones are the Biggest

19.S is for status: in relationship?

20.T is for time you woke up today: 8plus. =) tt's a miricle

21.U is for underwear you have on now: one of those u found in ur sister's closet. =)

22.V is for vegetable you love: wow! ask my mom. =)

23.W is for worst habit: haha! ask my family. =X

24.X is for x-rays you've had: 1?

25.Y is for yummy food you ate today: wooo~ my mom's noodle! n some popcorn ^^

26.Z is for zodiac sign: if you r my fren. u shld know. =)

2007-10-30T23:19:00.000+08:00

1. What do you want for your next birthday?
++ wow! DAMN loads of things! my wishlist will be up soon. *hint hint* =P ++

2 . Who will be your next kiss?
++ my bf of course! ++

3. When was the last time you went to the mall?
++ like.. just now? ++

4. Are you wearing socks right now?
++ wad for? ++

5 . How did you spend your holiday?
++ rotting eating sleeping buzzing laming n cursing. =) ++

6. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
++ yaps! ++

7. What was the last thing you drank?
++ Chinese tea ++

8 . What are you wearing right now?
++ tee? ++

9 . What was your last purchase?
++ uhm.. a pair of new colour pants? ++

10. What was the last food you ate?
++ spagetti! yummy~ ++

11 . Who would be the person you would call if you were up in the middle of the night and couldn't sleep?
++ Jeff? ++

12. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
++ yeah.. juz bought last 2 days. ++

13. Do you have a pet?
++ no, i'm alreadi a pet. ++

14. What made you laugh in the last 5 days?
++ how would i know! ++

15. If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
++ audition. playing with hackers. muahahaah!! ++

1 6. What is the last thing you purchased online?
++ hmm, a keychain? i dunno! y the hell would i rmb that for?! ++

17. One thing you hate about yourself?
++ my personality ++

18 . What's your favourite soup?
++ my mom's chinese soup! ++

19 . Do you miss anyone?
++ yeah! u bet! guess guess hu~ =P ++

20. What are your plans for the day?
++ uhm, chiong my things.. slack n try to steal my time to go audi? =.= ++

21. Last person you msg'd?
++ Renjie ++

2 2. Ever went to camp?
++ duh~ hu doesnt?! ++

23 . Are you a good student in school?
++ yeah! i'm a DAMN good student ... from the bottom =) ++

24. What do you know about the (your)future?
++ nth is predictable.. but, i guess i'm gonna b a slacker forever. hahas! ++

25 . Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
++ yeah. juz now. ask Jeff abt it. =x ++

26 . Where is your best friend right now?
++ i dunno. i wun know either. =) ++

2007-10-28T17:31:00.001+08:00

Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine, now that I'm alone
Cause right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Caused you walked out the door,
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger then this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin' 'round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin' over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Don't make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
Let it go
Turning off the radio

Cause I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

2007-10-17T01:31:00.000+08:00

audi audi audi~~
even audi oso gt problem.. =.=

long ytd cant decide wan choose hu.. he gt 3 gers.. onli QP and me he want to stay with.. lemon.. hahas.. he juz wan her for fun.. so, den.. i tink QP n long get back together bah? QP used to b his ex.. lols.. so, yah.. i lost the battle.. but.. nvm lo.. single back agn.. hahas.. looking for part-time bf.. XDD sian ler.. i login in onli.. call my long bf.. he say he wan break wid me ler.. =\ dampen my whole mood.. but i know he shebuder wo.. XD but he's a smoker ==

haix.. so sad ler.. den long's fren kip appearing infront of me nia.. haix.. den his fren, ming der fren.. come n find me.. wtf. how he know we break ler? =\ news travel damn fast.. got to know from him tt my 'didi'(long's bro) is a bastard.. does it run in his family? =x anyway.. I got another erzi.. tink long n i der erzi.. can kick off ler.. his baobei nuer oso can kick ler.. =P

wadever.. hophop room.. saw -KNS- guild ppl.. lols.. mei dun like them.. but somehow.. i like them.. =x lols.. we played b4 for a few rounds onli.. so, i tot they dunno me.. suddenly juz popped in onli.. mau here mau there.. =\ lolzzz.. play play noh.. kns der leader ask me wanna b ldr of kns anot.. == my ouxiang~

I. just. want. to. stare. into. the blank. sky. and. admire. the nature.
I. am. very. reluctant. to. move. on.
I. am. very. tired. of. doing. things. that. I. dont. like. and. it. sucks. !

2007-10-14T23:12:00.000+08:00

haix.

feeling so down lately.

friday night I went to ahger's hse earlier to help out her mom.. omg.. I came late.. =x so sorry~ but the mother like.. one man show.. LOL! she everything oso can do der.. well, came with Jeff.. but.. he do nothing there.. lols. helped out awhile.. den i run out play wid jeff.. XD ahger der papa dunno me n jeff couple meh? =x

finally~ phyu n yyx came.. we eat first noh.. waiting long for ahma n jilong to come.. haix.. seems like nth to talk to ahma ler.. ahma n her frenz are much more closer.. see ahger oso.. dunno wan say wad.. abit weird.. haix.. we all three like.. really seperated ler.. =(

seems like both my besties have their own set of friends.. and I'm still holding on to the memories of the past.. mayb I shld move on with my life.. =\

anyway, ytd celebrate dajie's bday.. went on a eating spree.. finally.. after dear's school reopens.. I never felt so happy before.. seriously.. ytd is the onli day my family see me laugh so happily.. thanks my sisters! =)

2007-10-12T02:14:00.000+08:00

Wed.
si nic. pangseh me. ==

in de end, we still meet up. ^^ FINALLY.. meet up with him.. after 1yr of online friendship. ^^

=) he so damn shy.. so quiet.. zzz.. eventually.. hehe.. he talked more n more..

aiyah~ nth much oso.. my plans all destroyed.. =\ pei him walk ard till time to meet his fren noh.. hahas.. gentleman.. =X like dear when we first meet.. mayb nt the talking part.. hahas.. we go play this game called house of the dead 4. kns. the gun gt prob der lo.. or mayb say he LOUSY la.. == walao. the shuaiges there watching us lah.. == so ps. =X

wah! he so good. say wan pei me shopshop.. XD but i bolui.. =( sponsor me? =P
plz. dont. look. at. me. when. I'm. eating. thank you!

somehow.. ppl hu i knew love linkin park arent going to their concert.. y is tt so? i dunno.. but I'm going! My sis is a HUGE yet nt big fan of linkin park.. lols.. I'm juz scared if they sing most of their 3rd album.. hahas.. but.. wadever..

haix.. plzplz dun let me laosai in the morning~~~~ grr... wake up early oso become no use.. ==

TIRED LAH

give up giving up gave up gaved up alreadi. =)

Audi long laogong buying me Acash! weets~ =X let's go virtual shopping. =P

eeyer. kns lo. bastard ming. say tell long der.. oso nvr tell.. =X but I still wan long.. n i have a super ke ai erzi n a super lovely nu er.. ^^

xterrorsinx : I saw a cat. meow~
mAu : I saw a terrorist.*run*
xterrorsinx : -.-"

xlg ah xlg.. where u la~~ eeyer.. nvr take care of this xlp der.. =X

argh! friday come. dreaded for friday to come.. zzz.. which means gilerarunner will log in.. n make me sad agn.. grrrah! dun wan break wid him yet wan break wid him..

caslyn mei~ dun be so sad ler la.. if he dun wanna patch back.. den suan ler lo.. y waste ur time n heart on someone hu wun go back to u? nt like u no guys jio oso.. =X ^^ cheers~

WO BU MING BAI HUA WEN / HUA YI !!
tt's a fact.

2007-10-09T23:32:00.000+08:00

I saw JiaHui on train.
=)
been long since we meet..
chatted like old buddies.. =)
lols.. I'm late for class.. he's late for class too..
haha.. u've become more shuai ler..
that short short chinese garden to dover train ride..
we chat about our goals..
our plans after graduate..
=)
you just made my day~

I saw Jason at the canteen.
I saw Jason at the mrt.
ahah!

I meet Jeffrey today.
^^
miss u so much!

2007-10-09T01:40:00.000+08:00

my fren asked me..

what makes u tink it's worth staying in this world..

my ans..

I dunno!

his ans..

SAME!

lols! dude~ u're my best bud~ XD

Audition Addict Alert!
=X

mau + long = couple.
ming & long = friends.
ming jio mau = wtf.
mau + ming = ? dunno. =x
ming & long = MIA

mau + gilerarunner = zzzz. heartbreaker. kns.

lols! today so weird.. gt ppl ask me b their audi gf.. 2 smmore.. =.= kns.. nvr see my profile i'm attached har? =X dun wan so many audi bf ler.. later PEOPLE say me flirt.. lols.. reject them.. kns! the gers say i v evil.. v bad.. =.= wtf!

to Caslyn meimei.. dun so sad ler.. if he love u.. he wun so ez break wid u der noh.. cheers~ I alreadi give u my advice ler.. up to u to decide wad to do.. =) hope u're alright!

// aaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh //

i wanna give up again ler! DAVID!! where u!!! =(

find counseller bah.. ^^ finding one soon~ wee~

can i QUIT school? =X i'm still considering..

DAVID!! dun read this post! =X
anyway, u deleted my pic in ur blog!! =x so shuai der neh!

2007-10-05T11:28:00.000+08:00

class~
you understand?~

grr..

feeling so tired everyday.. =\

Caslin mei.. dun fan so much over didi bah.. he buaysong u i kick him for you each time i see him lo.. =X lols.. but ur didi so quiet..

Long + mAu = Rona
noob. npc. win 3k. lose 4k. wtf.

Males + HBK-Gurl = less than 5 hearts. =\
play until my finger damn suan liaoz still haven couple. =.=

MaRo + mAu = impossible
4k = pros. 8k = noobs.
MaRo seems popular hor~ ahem

8k + 154bpm + FN button = my max, laptop fn button juz too mafan to convert.

alt = spacebar. == now onli i know.

i'm Audi addict ~~~ !!!